sELf-cOnsciOUSness

shud i get rid of my self-consciousness??
y shud i care wat other ppl think??
if a person dislikes me, so wat??

somehow, i wouldnt b able to please every1 n b d apple of their eyes right??
so, yes yes yes, i wanna change, i'm not contemplating..

being too self-conscious is not a good thing,
i've led a miserable life for as long as i can remember coz i tend to please every1...
enuff, i shud love myself more den any1/anything in d world..

SuperLongTag

i'm sick of marking papers... still got a lot to go, grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr....
so, i shud take a break...
came across dis SuperLongTag very long time ago, i saved it but neva hav time to do it, now i do...

Are your parents married or divorced?
Married

Are you a vegetarian?
Nope, but i do love vegetarian food made of flour..

Do you believe in Heaven?
I think so, if we do good deeds we'll end up in heaven -dat is wat mom has been telling me-

Have you ever come close to dying?
No, wouldnt wan to b too..

What jewellery do you wear 24/7?
My necklace

Favourite time of day?
when i get home after work n lay on my bed for 15 minutes...

Do you eat the stems of broccoli?
of coz, africans dont get enuff to eat, so y shud we b choosy..

Do you wear makeup?
yup, light one for work..

Ever have plastic surgery?
no.. i dun even dare to get my ears pierced, so do u think i would b brave enuff to b CUT..

Do you colour your hair?
no, i hate asians who wished to b europeans.. b happy wif ur asian look..

What do you wear to bed?
my pajamas..

Have you ever done anything illegal?
does buying pirated vcd count..

Can you roll your tongue?
can, shud i feel proud.. lol..

What kind of sneakers?
doesnt matter, as long as it's comfortable..

Do you believe in Abortions?
ya, when it is affecting mom or d baby's life/health.. liesten to d doctor's advice..

What is your Hair color?
Black, Hitam, Noir, Hei sei

Future child’s name?
shud i think for it now..

Do you snore?
no, not sure... but my mom did tell me i snore once..

If you could go anywhere in the world where would it be?
Paris, so i can practise my french, by den i oni know how to say "bonjour, je m'appelle Christina... au revoir"

Do you sleep with stuffed animals?
ya, my teddy-d 1 received during my convo..

If you won the lottery, what would you do first?
go for a holiday wif my family..

Gold or silver?
silver.. gold is errr not suitable yet at dis age..

Hamburger or hot dog?
burger, rarely eat hot dog but yeah as i said, shouldnt b choosy..

If you could only eat one food for the rest of your life, what would it be?
why one!!!! i wud say chocolate..

City, beach or country?
i like all 3.. city when i need entertainment n beach when i need peace..

What was the last thing you touched?
does my lappy's touch pad count.. if not, it wud b my face n hair..

Where did you eat last?
in d dining room..

When’s the last time you cried?
a few weeks back when d bus didnt turn up..

Do you read blogs?
yeah, it's my favourite passtime..

Would you ever go out dressed like the opposite sex?
hmmm, i wear pants n shirt very often so i wud say yup..

Ever been involved with the police?
No, ooh yea-there was once, after i rebond my hair, bump into a roadblock middle of d nite wif my girlfriends who rebonded their hair too n melvin.. d police thought we were illegal immigrants from china aka china mui, brought in by melvin..

What’s your favourite shampoo, conditioner and soap?
hmm, i change them every now n then, so i dun hav any favourite brand..

Do you talk in your sleep?
how do i know.. i hope not..

Ocean or pool?
both r scary, i dunno how to swim-remember, so i'm afraid of both..

Window seat or aisle?
aisle, so i can get down easily n wouldnt need to trouble d 1 next to me to get up n give way..

Ever met anyone famous?
think so, but forgotten who coz d person wasnt very popular..

Do you feel that you’ve had a truly successful life?
i complete my degree wif flying colour, got myself a job though d pay is not very satisfying but still happy wif it.. hmm, sound successful right?? but it wud b perfect if i hav some1 to share my thoughts, happiness n sadness..

Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it?
twirl... do people cut spaghetti...

Ricki Lake or Oprah Winfrey?
who is Ricki Lake, call me a frog under d coconut shell - so i m opting or oprah winfrey..

Basketball or Football?
basketball though i dun play or watch becoz i think watching 22 men chasing after a ball is ridiculous..

How long do your showers last?
5 to 10 minutes..

Automatic or do you drive a stick?
i dun drive, i'm alwiz at d passenger's seat..

Cake or ice cream?
it's d flavour which matter most..

Are you self-conscious?
yes i am..

Have you ever drank so much you threw up?
no, i neva get drunk before coz i think alcohol is bitter.. yeah go ahead n laugh at me..

Have you ever given money to a beggar?
i have, not to one but to many..

Have you been in love?
another subjective ques..

Where do you wish you were?
when i was at home, i wish to b not at home..
when i was not at home, i wish to b at home..

Are you wearing socks?
not now, only when i go out..

Have you ever ridden in an ambulance?
no, touch wood n i wont get to ride in one at all..

Can you tango?
no, i can't dance coz i neva dance..

Last gift you received?
too many, fail to recall.. received abundance of gifts during my convo..

Last sport you played?
is climbing stairs a type of sports.. couldnt b.. d last sport i played wud b tennis which happened to b few months bk during my final exam..

Things you spend a lot of money on?
clothes, hair, food n books.. (all r junks arent they?)

Where do you live?
Gombak, will b shifting soon but not back to my home sweet home which is in sitiawan..

Where were you born?
ipoh-d city of leng lui but too bad was raised in sitiawan so i'm not up to d par..

Last wedding attended?
my cousin ann's wedding in singapore.. n she's going to deliver a baby soon, cant wait to visit my nephew..

Most hated food(s)?
used to b conge but now it wud b cockles..

What’s your least fav.?
least favaourite wat..... i dun get dis ques..

Can you sing?
every1 can sing but i m just too shy to sing aloud as i know i'm not a vocalist unlike all those superstars/singers wannabe.. oops sorry, terkutuk people..

Last person you instant messaged?
vicky, my colleague..

Last place you went on holiday?
langkawi which is not a memorable 1 becoz of d companion..

Favourite regular drink?
soya bean..

Tag 3 victims friends:
amirah, angie, william chee... (u guys are not victims, u r d lucky ones-haha, answer them, dun grumble)

Current Song?
way back into love

NeW LooK

Like my blog new look???
i spend so much time editing n it's still under construction...

d minute i got bk from gombak, i sit in front of my lappy n do all d editing, online at d same time from 3pm to 10pm *c, how i miss going online*
dis morning, d minute i open my eyes, my lappy also has to start work
*pity my lappy*
after staring at d html for so long n being a lil' dizzy,
i feel quite satisfy wif it...
i'll try to beautify it again when i go online -dun like d inconsistent size of d gap, men-uglified my page-

as for now, i shall mark my students' exam paper...

TaG 2

Tag #1
The rules:-
1. Link to your tagger and post these rules. -The Chloe's-
2. List eight (8) random facts about yourself.
3. Tag eight people at the end of this post and list their names.
4. Let them know they’ve been tagged by leaving a comment on their blogs.

lazy to answer, refer to my 1st tag by marcus on June 19..

Tag #2
Instructions:
Remove 1 question below, and add in your personal question to make it a total of 20 questions.
Then tag 8 people in your links list at the end of the post.
Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.

1. How many children do you want?
i want 3 but i'll have to think twice coz giving birth is a lil' scary..

2. What do you want the most now?
to turn back d time n re-check my exam ques

3. What do you want to be when you grow up?
I am a grown up now... i wanna teach n yes i m teaching now..

4. If you can have one more dream come true, what would it be?
to be able to drive a CAR... *pathetic* isnt it..

5. What are you afraid to lose now?
my English proficiency...

6. Do you believe in being in love forever?
I do..

7. If you meet someone you love, would you confess to him/her?
No..

8. What would you do when you're feeling down and depressed?
Cry as long as i can..

9. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
Smart..

10. Which type of person do you hate the most?
1 type?? can i name more den 1?? inconsiderate, snobish, selfish, rude (looks like i m hating many people huh)

11. Do you cherish every single of your friendships?
Yes of coz!!!!!!!!

12. Do you believe in God?
Yes

13. Do you find it necessary for you to have a boyfriend/girlfriend?
seriously, yes!!!

14. What do you want your friends to be like?
Just stay the way they are..

15. If you can have a change, which part of your character would you like to change?
dun wanna timid nemore..

16. If you're feeling low one day, who will you go to?who else?
My mom, cousin, yong yong n melvin..

17. Would you die in order to save the ones you love?
huh??? yes n no-not sure, it depends..

18. If you knew you were going to die tomorrow, what would you do today?
Settling all stuff and tell my loves one to follow God no matter what.

19. Fav color?
Shi jing's ques, lol we r not young nemore-errr, maroon..

20. Your life in 10 years time?

Congratulations!
You have been tagged with not one, but two taggies!
Amirah

Hoc Mun

Chai Xia Fong

Ng Yen Peng

Willian Chee

Shahrul Ridzuan

Marcus Tan

Rahail Sivalingam

NoStALgiA

If you are Msia's 80s baby,read through this;

we grew up watching Transformers,Thundercats, Woody Woodpecker, Chipmunks, Mickey Mouse, Jem, Mask, Ninja Turtles, Voltron, Baja Hitam, Ultraman n not forgettin POWER RANGERS n BUGS BUNNY!!!and anderra yippa mice?:), McGyver ?

had to brush our teeths during recess at primary school?
had to hold plastic cups, line up with your classmates side by side and start brushing our teeth sat some open area... or maybe near some drain??

do you still remember that we had 'dentist' rooms where we had to have our teeth check?

not to forget our 'program minum susu' in primary school.. everybody is supposeto buy like cartons of milk that costed 30 cents.. and you would see everyone drinking it everyday...its d UHTmilk...

the teachers who would want to punish us must use yellow rulers which is approx 1 metre to hit us on our palms..

a bowl of mihun soup or some soup only costed 50 cents at the school canteen...

went to some sundry shop near the school or to the 'roti' man waiting outside our schools so that we can buy junk food like chickedees, mamee, ding dang with some toys in it, 'Ti Kam', ice-cream and we would play games like monopoly, uno, old maid, and all other card games likethat...

another fun time would be during Pendidikan Jasmani.. the boys would play football while the girls would play netball... and it would be like we were playing in the world cup...

but of course the best would be main guli, batu seremban, bottle caps, lompat getah, ice-cream sticks, 'Pepsi Cola one-two-three', Cops and Robbers, main achi duduk... and for the not so active, those kind of 'book games' where we would use buku latihan to draw and ask our friends to play...

do you remember the ice-cream tubes which are actually ice and colouring that are sold for 10 to 20 cents.. the colourful ones.. where you usually bite off the top to glup it down.orange tastes d best..(pop-ice)


what about days when we felt like doing naughty things such as folding tiny pieces of papers to make 'lastik' and shoot each other... how about throwing chalks??


back then, micheal jackson was just turning white.. and still had albums coming out.. compared to CD's, we were listening to tapes that sold for RM9.90...


in computer class, we were still using black and white computer moniters.. played 'Atari'... maybe SEGA or NINTENDO..


well, are we all getting older or what?
1) if you understand what you have read and you are smiling...
2) we have friends from school that are already married...
3) we shake our heads everytime we see high school students fussing about their handphones in school..
4) we don't hang on phone with our friends for hours a day talking about nothing...
5) when we meet back with our friends from time to time, we feel excited and happy talking about old times, the funny 'adventures' or stories that we experienced as a kid..
6) last but not least, that when you read this, you would think of all the happy & sad memories that you have experienced when you were still a kid and would think of forwarding this to your old friends that you have known since forever... i'm sure they would have a huge smile on their face after reading this.....

Blogger's note:
i dun hav a huge smile, in fact my eyes got teary....

RaYa MoOd??

in less den 72hours i'll b in sitiawan....
oh god, plz make dis 3 days as short as possible...
i neva had a good rest since i started working...
(no wonder most of my frends opt to further their studies)

it had beed rather hectic n unhappy this few days coz i got scolded from a lecturer..
not really, she just sound me-but it's embarrassing enough becoz ppl neva doubt my work..
but i dun deny, it's my fault for not marking properly (marking 100 copies of paper drives me up d wall, n yes i got lazy den yea dat is y i got questioned by her-now i'm avoiding her n wouldnt chat wif her unnecessarily)...
another incident is when i didnt check my question paper thoroughly, it's not dat i deliberately ignore d formating but i over looked...

y am i taking such a long time to type dis entry??
dis shows dat my level of english is deteriorating, i thought teaching can make me cleverer but it's d other way round...

i miss researching wif angie, faeiz, nadia n d bunch of lecturers -my english proficiency improved a lot when i was wif them but now *sigh*

special Convo entry

receiving my degree from d pro-cancelor, he's all smiled as well-wat a friendly man.....

my 1st eva studio pix.. all d other girls taken theirs during sweet16 but mine, now at d age of 23..

the ONGs, it was our first proper family pix too.... y i'm d oni 1 smiling??

d top 5 of ukm 2008... we dun come from d same faculty, we r from different background, different exposure, we dun hav any similarity.. but from a very short ice-breaking session i know dat they are very successful people (i think i'm d least successful 1-shame on me)

just a brief intorduction on d 5 nerds n wat we are engaging wif at d moment...
-d most left, majored in islamic studies n currently tutoring in ukm
-2nd from left, a lawyer.. doing his chambering in 1 of d law firm now..
-middle girl, a lecturer.. lecturing in international islamic college..
-2nd from right, d 1 who received anugerah diraja was from d business n economics faculty n now he's attached to d national bank..
-d most right, a tesl graduate who speaks very fluent english (sounds like an english man n my dad admires his competency very much) is now researching in ppbl, ukm-angie's colleague n would most probably b lecturing there soon..

let's talk bout d picture, we were asked to pretend to discuss bout d medals... wat do u think...
5 of us made a fool out of ourselves right?? study can la, ask us to pose / pretend, we cannot la...

the end... no more pre, during n post convo blues... life goes on...
but, hmmm i havent get my money n d medal....

convo - part 3

we went to our faculty for so call d family day.. we did nothing but snapping pix while our parents bz chit-chatting wif d lecturers.... u can oni c d 4 of us-angie, william, alwani n i...

pakiaa, another bolywood queen dat i missed... hehehe...

coincidently bump into esther at d faculty -so wouldnt wanna miss a snap shot wif her..

kak sam, so sweet of her to drop by actually snaking away -hehehe luckily datin didnt catch u.. neway thanks for d lovely gift..


our parents, william's excluded becoz he sent them bk... look how matching alwani's parents r...

lurve dis pic (but i look damn fat becoz of d white shirt).... my parents dr ck who put in all their efforts, love, sweat n money that lead to my success.. i owed them a lot n wouldnt b able to repay d 3 of them in dis life..

it's us wif our lecturer -mr.aj, (i dunno who is she) n dr.ck- "u hav d honour to sit coz it's ur day", said d lecturers..

groupy-us, d students, parents n lecturers, mr.aj n dr.ck (d coolest lecturers in ppbl)

finally, me wif a super tired face n my gifts.... all these r from my lovely friends.... love them a lot-d gifts as well as u guys.....

convo - part 2

dis entry is for those who attended my convo.... thanx for standing wif me under d hot sun... not many came but i'm not disappointed... i was -not even 1 single sitiawan frends but can't do nething -it's all d uni fault becoz arrange fssk ceremony on monday... so, shall let d pics do d talking....

daddy n mummy (d most important persons in my life-without them i won't b here)..... thanx for d bear.... i chose it but they paid... anak derhaka kan...

mua family.... lol, every1 is tired.. n i m d oni 1 who smiled-can't even c my eyes right....

f&n-faeiz n nadia... i met them when i was ra-ing wif angie... d 4 of us automatically clicked.... we ate delicious food together, monkey-ed around in d hotel.. we had so much fun together...

p/s: faeiz, u miss bread butter pudding or not???? let's go there 1 day when i'm rich enough...

dis is foo li yan..... very close frend of mine... without her i'll b sleeping by d road side.... n we hav so much fun together -laughing at each other jokes- i hope u wouldnt b too lonely yea now without me in ktho....

jia huey, another junior of mine... i've influenced her a lot-asked her to join dis n dat, at d end she did wat i say...


fui na, d vocalist.. can sing very very well-lurve her voice... also a nice girl as she helped me a lot..

my 1 n only floormate for one whole year... though she's quiet n alwiz forgot her keys but without her, i wud b extremely lonely...

hui min, d 1st ever girl who spoke to me in ukm... so glad to know her... she set a very deep impression in my parents' mind n they know her well


nian wei dropped by as well... d sad thing is dat bouquet of flower n bears was not for me... sob~

lai yee, another thoughtful junior... foo li yan's roomie.. both very sweet...

my orchestra mate.. c, lay teng came all d way from klang... pam, thanx for ur lovely n useful gift from sarawak... every1 was there except xian yin...

here's ur pic, miss chai xia fong!!!!!! d other 1 where u wore ur gown, u dun look like u at all-i was a lil' shock n wondering who's dis huh when i 1st glimpse at it...

hoc mun n charis.. 1 is my ktho junior who helped me lot by playing d guitar n saving ktho choir club, another 1 is my els junior-another brainy...

wan ting, d latest pretty orchestra secretary (sing very well too, she's in ukm choir n sang very nice songs for us)... glad she dropped by coz i make so much noice n poor chee yow had to go look for her..

marcus tan.. wat shud i write about dis fella... super loud guy.. alwiz hear his voice before seeing him.. but no doubt, he can speak very well except mandarin-ya, mass com is d right choice dude..

hmmm, since when i'm shorter den tim???? dunno y i look vertically challenge in all my convo pix...

ALwaNi

dis is my bestest friend... NUR ALWANI FARIDAM.. she has been a great companion during my years in ukm...

i still remembered when i get to know her... here goes d story on how i met her...

we were from d same hostel, n it was during 3M when i 1st saw her, everyone was bz filling up some forms.. n dis girl insisted dat d title of her major consist of d word 'sastera' -

she's my coursemates (i didnt know it dat time, n i malas nak layan dis very troublesome girl), so d title is pengajian bahasa inggeris (english language studies), if add 'sastera' it wud b pengajian sastera dalam bahasa inggeris (literature studies)... n i totally ignore her thinking dat she's so annoying...

surprisingly, we were actually staying in d same floor n when class begun, we'll hav to find our way there..

coincidently, both of us were heading to d same place -PPBL.. dat's how i get to know her n we became extremely close after dat..

like superglue-whereva u c me, u'll c her n vice versa till most our lecturers know us...

haha, i remember dr.jamie asking for alwani when she saw me walking alone...

neva knows time fly dis fast... in a blink of an eye, we hav gone our own ways...

she's now more den 400km from me... kinda miss her over-confident attitude, whereby i'll alwiz shout at her...

*sigh*

those were d days...

today is her birthday, n dis time i didnt get to listen to her 'remember ah, my birthday is 2nd of sept, dun forget tau'... when she uttered dat, i'll scold her.. kinda miss shouting at her..

finally, have a wonderful n memorable birthday wif ur loved one,

happy 22nd birthday once again mrs. zaim

u r dearly missed..

take good care of urself though i know mr.zaim wud b taking care of u...

c u again soon i hope

(bila nak pegi shopping ni???)