Current Fav Songs

hmmm, this is my 3rd post today... i'll be so dead.... damn, i just do not know wat exactly is with me... i wanna get my work done but i just dun wanna do it-i'm mentally so tired.. i m trying to adopt sikap tidak apa attitude, trying to scrap off the idea of being a perfectionist... so, songs will tone things down i guess, it has been long since i last listen to any song.. anyhow, taylor swift is still my favourite.. there's 1 exception here, miley cyrus' butterfly fly away sounds nice, i was falling for it when i watched hannah montana the movie-finally found the full version and am keeping it here... enjoy these mvs~

-Our Song-

-Picture to Burn-

-Butterfly Fly Away-

Backdated B'day

I turned a quarter of a century old few weeks back.. every year i blogged on that exact date but due to some unforeseen circumstances, i didn't make it... now, i somehow manage to blog about it.. to be frank, i was extremely upset & tired on the 11th of oct and was emotionally unstable.. so i went to bed as early as 9pm.. i burst out when it was 12 sharp when my housemates were kind enough to buy me a cake and surprise me but i turned out crying non-stop for at least 1h... why? it was my very 1st b'day wif him and he was in KK and i was here doing tonnes of work and when i want their help in return for my assignments, every1 turned me down-i just couldn't take NO for an answer that time.. i've been crying real a lot that week till my voice and the shape of my eyes changed... i hate my birth date, it was and will never b a holiday or a day to celebrate.. i should try to accept this fact, but i just can't till now...

i started to smile again when i received birthday greetings in facebook.. i received over 200 greetings plus a few sms-es and phone calls... all those made my day and i read and replied every single thoughtful msg... my mom saw the greetings coz my bro showed her and she called up and said, u really have a lot a lot a lot of friends ah and they all wished u happy birthday so be happy!

some made me laugh out loud, a few tickled me (those from my naughty yet thoughtful students of mine) and 1 is really x10 very well-written..

Ivy Soh Lin Chai: Happy birthday!!! May everything in your life would go well and end well^^

Ppoxygen Exosy: sook-a, sook-a, sook-a, sook-a beng! happy happy happy happy birthday! miss me? miss me? miss me? miss me? best wished for u! stay happy, stay pretty, stay healthy!

Xiau Jian Wong: H̲̅][̲̅̅A̲̅][̲̅̅P̲̅][̲̅̅P̲̅][̲̅̅Y̲̅] [̲̅̅B̲̅][̲̅̅I̲̅][̲̅̅R̲̅][̲̅̅T̲̅][̲̅̅H̲̅][̲̅̅D̲̅][̲̅̅A̲̅][̲̅̅Y̲̅] to our dear miss ♥ stay healthy, happy n PRETTY.. =)

Jovyin Ng: Happy Birthday leng lui tutor~~ wish u have a nice day~~

Sms Suziana: Soooo many birthday wishes...Happy Birthday Christina

Amirah Aina Azlan: Happy Birthday, Chris! =) Have a wonderful day and a wonderful year ahead.
P.S. U look cute with ur short haircut, u should keep it that way,heh..

Amshavahini Mariappan: miss Christina....happY BirthDay.....many more returns of the say....may ALL your dreams come TRUE.....stay sweet and pretty miss...take care byeee..

Lee Kang Phin: Miss !! Happy birthday~wish ur pretty level is upgraded as every age gain hahahaha

Sze Tan: Dear Ms Christina (cannot comma)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WISH
Refer to the subject above, I would like to wish you happy birthday.

Your sincerely(cannot comma also)
Tan Mei Sze

haha.

Jayvain John Sia: Some words of wisdom for your birthday, "Smile while you still have teeth!"

Dear Christina,

May you be richly blessed with all things wonderful and splendid.
May your joys be as the countless stars in the sky and victories as plentiful as the grains of sand on the beach.
May lack and struggle serve only to make you grow wiser and stronger.
And may you always feel loved, protected and cradled in the arms of God Almighty.
Happy birthday!

the last greeting was superbly impressive right? it was from my uni frend, the 1 who received the uni award with me 2 years ago... he really deserved it, see how good his command of english is... and anytime u pop him any question related to english, be it a word, a theory, or a structure, he'll be able to answer u... even my dad who met him once during the convo still remembered him till today and constantly praising him...

Beauty of A Woman

Did you know that if shop mannequins were real women they'd be too thin to have babies?

There are 3 billion women who don't look like supermodels and only eight who do.

Marilyn Monroe wore a size 14.

If Barbie was a real woman, she'd have to walk on all fours due to her proportions.

The average woman weighs 144 lbs and wears between a 12-14.

One out of every four college aged women has an eating disorder.

The models in the magazines are airbrushed - not perfect!

A psychological study in 1995 found that three minutes spent looking at a fashion magazine caused 70% of women to feel depressed, guilty, and shameful.

Models twenty years ago weighed 8% less than the average woman.

Today they weigh 23% less.

Today women are lovers, mothers, and career women. Who else is able to balance such a load, and do it with a smile?

The beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears, the figure she carries, or the way she combs her hair. The beauty of a woman must be seen from her eyes, because that is the doorway to her heart, The place where love resides. The beauty of a woman is reflected in her soul. It is the care that she lovingly gives, the passion that she shows. The beauty of a woman, with passing years - only grows.

Share this page with all the beautiful women you know - a friend, a mother, a lover, someone special.

-grabbed this from Angie's note-

isn't this very well written?

to those who are still living in the 'oh i am so fat world' (including this idiot, the owner of this blog who re-post the note) read the sentence in BOLD...

Happier Moments~

There were moments when I actually smile, they were now put in chronological order.. I hope this is will be the start of no-more-moody-case and live-happily me..

I talked and sms-ed a few friends of mine over the weekend and this morning I woke up telling myself, hey look here I can be happy if I want to, I am the one who choose to be not all along.. and finally I understand the simple fact that I have to move on no matter what, try looking at things from a different perspective-so instead of groaning over others' shit, be glad that people acknowledge me; instead of complaining how much I've helped but receive none when I am in need, just put on my thinking cap and figure things out which will at the end of the day add on to my existing pool of knowledge; instead of mourning over the workload, try sorting things out and know my priority...

enough with the crap, let's look at what I've been up to:

1. the daijiolosophy people came to sitiawan to pay me a visit during Raya break.. (they are my ukm orchestra mate).. we went to marina island, the new tourist spot in sitiawan.. those we ours, mine is the one with the most scars...

these were us, walking to our parking lot..

we officiated the mid autumn festival by lighting up that 2 words (which to be frank I do not know the meaning or underlying meaning of it til today)

that's me + the candles in the form of 'dai jiao'

2. Attended FAS Lunch Gathering one fine day. Those are my colleagues. It was early, that's why our table was rather empty.

3. My belated birthday-a quarter of the century old and I did not have any celebration. It was not a memorable one except the greetings I received. Oh ya, the small lil' tiny choco yummy cake was from s.huey > so thoughtful of her and y.yong for my lunch..

We went for a drink before heading to Bangsar to do some shopping... it was (oh gosh, I forgot the name, some cantonese words) selling herbal tea, turtle shell jelly and all sort of herbal tea which eliminate heat from your body.

took advantage of the nice background and these 2 girl friends of mine did old school pose and we were laughing over it...

me again, and it looked mysterious (is that a positive connotation), thanks to the lenses s.huey used..

we had our dinner at a korean restaurant in Ampang.. it was not any other korean restaurant but an authentic one.. before i talk about the food, i like this pix of yong and I max, also the lil' dishes which complement it... double thumbs up..

finally, the food... it was YUMMYLICIOUS!!! FINGER LICKING GOOD!! fyi, those were common korean dishes and i have tried korean food several times but nothing can beat this.. the moral of the story is, do not go for commercialized version of food, tried looking for the authentic one-how? no worry, I have a food critic friend whose taste bud is so sensitive and has high expectation for food,most importantly she's available most of the time to give her critique..


p/s: thank u girls for the fun we had last saturday..

Tears, Tears, Go away...

again, i am not in a good shape...
again, i'll be complaining on the amount of work i have in my hands..
again, i am going to ponder upon the path i chose..

i think i've shoo-ed many people away from here, thanks to the never-stop-complaining me..
i'm out of tears, i've been crying a lot, so often til i myself couldn't believe..

i just want a decent life, is that too much to ask for?
i've tried my very best to get my work done, yet it doesn't seem to be up to the expectation, fine, so tell me straight to my face what is right, i don't like hints, i'm very tired of figuring out everything myself, and fyi-there's only 1 head here, other groups are with 2 heads and 1 person doing the writing..
and I will never lend a helping hand to people I'm not so closed with, in fact no more Ms. Good Samaritan-sounds familiar, i repeated this statement for a gazillion times, so when will it turn real, soon I hope, very soon..
Going around solving others' prob & listening to people's prob-those were what I did the whole of last week (aren't that a BIG WASTE OF MY TIME-what has so and so hyperactive child has to do with me, so and so is IT illiterate and I am the one who can cure this) which I was supposed to be doing my writing..

fed up, fed up, FED UP.. am so sick of everything..
why can't I lead a normal life? why must things appear to be so difficult to handle?
why can't everyone just do the portion of work given and make everyone's life happier?
stop bugging me, stop asking me how to do this and that, stop everything!!
we are all the same, a human with a brain, if i am able to figure things out and accept instruction so can u, u and u out there-Are u guys aware that u are DOUBLING up my workload??


p/s: fine, i don't think they'll ever know this, they'll never know how miserable my life has become because of them..

So Far~

how do i start? it has been quite some time ever since i had some1 to share my laughter, tears, food etc... there were ups and downs (all thanks to me who don't really know how to control my temper yet) but his patience and tolerance have stopped us from getting into a big fight except for that one time where we kept mum for one evening...

despite, i being kinda cranky at times and he preferring to not to talk much, our strong sense of tolerance pulls us through... plus, his surprises which weren't great nor grand but i was happy enough to sometimes laugh at them myself...

when we are alone 300km apart, we talk on the phone like once a day plus a few sms-es > it's like a routine... to be frank, i ran out of words sometimes-we're ntg like those lovey-dovey couples out there, we only go for some meals and movies-and i'm getting quite sick of shopping malls.. he knew it so he alwiz tries to please me by driving us to places other than shopping malls-sigh, poor thing... recently, i've been demanding, asking for dis and dat-wanted to eat choco fondue, dessert and so on...

not only that, i put him in difficult situations too.. when i was upset with work, had blockage in writing or feeling as if the world was against me, i cried so hard he doesn't know how to console me... when he complained, i tended to brush his probs aside or worst i'll ask him why he has never shared something happy happened to him before... i can see that he has changed a lil' where we now talk about happier stuff like his childhood and mine, stupid stuff our friends said and did and so on...

i can't express how thankful i am to him and how much i appreciate all the small lil' things he did so far excluding walking too fast ahead of me and leaving me behind.... i couldn't agree more with his bestie that girls are super difficult to please-needing to tolerate the pms, temper, demand & what not, even i myself can't take them but he can... there's ntg wrong with being plumpy, not gentle, not adventurous, not creative, i should be the one who needs a 180 degree change for good..