mERRy cHRISTMAs

I hereby would like to wish all of u out there a Merry merry Christmas with a cupcake and a Santa on it!!

it's Boxing Day today but the Christmas spirit is still around us isn't it!!

Want a Dose of Laughter & Inspiration?

When I am having my breakfast or lunch in the office or wanting to kill some time or needing a break, I will resort to none other than my favourite hobby-blog reading/blog hopping!!!

My favourite are as follows.. You will notice half of them are comic blogs - i love reading them, not b'coz they only show picture but their speech bubbles are very entertaining!!!

3 words-disgusting but funny!!! read the entries on 'Pengotor'-u'll burst into laughter..

simply love the cartoons drawn & the content is very much related to us...

have not explored further but not bad so far...

as above caption-it's about her life but it sounded nice as she drew them out..

one of my favourite female bloggers who deserves a lot of respect!!! my hat's off to her!!

5 words- hamsap but true & funny... alwiz made meLOL alone in the office...

the 2nd female blogger i actually like-she's versatile & inspiring!!!

2 words-VERY creative!! he can turn some ordinary topics to very extraordinary stories..

I am very thankful to the technology & Internet for bringing me all these... and of coz these bloggers whom I do not know in real life but have been constantly making me laugh like nobody's business thru blogsphere... I hope they will continue writing and continue bringing laughter & sunshine to my life...

Vain, Vain, Vain...

I don't think any of my reader misses me (sigh~)... It has been quite some time since I last post my face, I myself have nearly forgotten how I myself look like... Because I was having writer's block in the office dis afternoon, I took out my phone and started camwhoring... so yeah, now I got to c how old I've grown, but thankfully, no wrinkle yet & I still have my teeth....

For those who miss me, i present you-9 different me!!!!! god, vain x10000....

Bloom's Tax in Pirates?

Wanted to link Bloom's Taxonomy to what I am currently doing but found this video.... Interestingly done-clips from Pirates of the Carribean resembling the 6 stages in Bloom's Taxonomy...

I may seem out of my mind but I certainly need things like this to brighten myself up....

Happy holiday to all of you out there, as for me, my nightmare has just begun....

Friday Blue~

Everyone simply loves Friday but not me... Everyone loves weekend to the max but not me... Everyone hates weekdays, same goes to me...

In other words, I hate every single day...

I have no goal not aim, I do not know wat's going on in my career as well as my studies.. I find myself very lost...

This was named the 'no-mood' phase by a friend of mine but how true it is?

I'm still working my ass off; I can no longer find the satisfaction in the work I do...

At times my students cheer me up with their creativity in class, most of the time I find it difficult for me to be happy...

'Happy' seems to be fading off in my dictionary, it has been replaced by anger, agitation, frustration....

Frowning~

After not blogging for quite some time, I am resuming my blogging activity with a very negative entry.... My feelings are clearly depicted in the article below which I stumble upon while reading The Star... I've been thinking, weighing the good and the bad, mulling over and the indecisive me will have to continue frowning for quite some time before making a decision.. It has been long since I feel happy, perhaps the pursuit of unhappiness has engulfed me completely... Only frowns, tears and tantrum, where are my smile, laughter and satisfaction? Sigh~

Sunday November 6, 2011

The pursuit of unhappiness

By JEANISHA WAN

NOBODY in her right mind wants to be unhappy. Everyone wants to pursue happiness. It is our relentless goal to be happy at all times.

If so, why then do we do what is contradictory and make ourselves constantly unhappy?

It is probably due to our reluctance to accept the fact that life IS unfair, and having the idea that we DESERVE certain things.

We feel unhappy because we think we deserve to be appreciated by people – our boss, colleagues, parents, children, even our staff. We feel unhappy because we think we deserve a raise, promotion or more fame, or we want things to go the way we wish, but they don’t.

We feel unhappy that some people get rich instantly through fraudulent means or by mismanaging our money, even as we labour to death. We feel unhappy that being nice did not get us anywhere, while those who were conniving and selfish got to go where they wanted to be.

We feel unhappy because we think that we deserve attention, fair treatment and having people be pleasant to us. That they will thank us, applaud us, heck, even help us. When none of this happens, it makes us tremendously unhappy.

Expecting people to be good and fair is bound to make us unhappy. Because life is NOT fair. It is only when we accept the fact that we deserve nothing, that we will be surprised by goodness and fairness. And, in doing so, find happiness.

Awesome Speakers in ICELT2011

I have so many stuff to share but so little time... I have been as busy as a bee for the past one month... Anyway, I am taking a break, so waste not, time to blog...

I was at a conference 3 weeks ago, organized by UPM in Damai Laut.... What amazed me was not only the flies (d b-e-a-utiful scenery must have attracted all the flies in Msia) but the AWESOME speakers (check out the clips below) I met... My jaw dropped and I enjoyed every single minute of it-they were simply amazing.. If I were to get teachers like them I would not have flunked my chemistry and biology...

The theme of the conference was 'Teaching English as a Performing Art' starring Jan Blake (superb storyteller, a big Jamaican lady with a BIG heart!), Adisa (Will Smith look-alike, as cool as his 'twin', good actor, good joker, but his poetry recital was magnificently impressive, I love his voice too), Paul Cookson was another fantastic poet but I couldn't find any video of him performing, I can still remember his 'Wateva' poem vividly... Adisa and Paul Cookson have changed my perceptions towards poems-they are not just lines which rhyme but embed meaningful underlying agendas... Finally, Carolyn Graham, the Jazz Chant Guru-don't know what Jazz Chant is, go check her out and in no time u'll be able to create your own chants, if you have musical bkgd, it's an added advantage...

I manage to figure out why they can be so popular and well-known in this teaching field.. They always get the audience to be involved in their 'show', it's never a one man show, unlike us, the teachers who yada yada n yada alone in front of a class...

-Jan Blake telling part of a story; not only her expression, gestures, movements tally and tie in with the story line but also her skills in getting the audience to be part of the story -

-Adisa, the tall handsome man; words can't describe how (allow me to use the word again) AWESOME he is.... he put up a power pack show, simply energetic...

-Adisa rapping a poem-

-the amazing Jazz Chant MahaGuru, Carolyn Graham; you may be able to create ur own chant if u can get the beat right.. though it suits children perfectly well n it may not work on my big buffaloes but it's worth a try-

There were a few more but these were the prominent ones.. I enjoyed the conference, I hope u will too-it's a must to check if u r teaching English...

Me disappoint the World or Vice Versa

How do you feel if you get bad remarks after putting in tonnes of efforts?

What will you do if you know people are obviously taking advantage over you?

How do you tell which person is sincere and which is not?

Do you tell white lies?

What will you do when people pestering for some confidential matters of yours?

I'm not supposed to be upset after a long break that I had last week... Unfortunately, I couldn't take all these anymore... It's as if the whole world comes crashing on me today...

Today is the beginning of my nightmare in my career....

Merdeka + Raya = MerRayadeka

I would like to wish all my silent readers/friends & all Malaysians

Happy 54th Merdeka

&

Happy Hari Raya Aidilfitri

Tho it's a few days late but I am sure we are all still in the festive mood (ahem, minus the working part)... It's a special celebration as our Independence Day coincides with Aidilfitri... and coincidentally I came across a video upholding the Malaysian spirit, so enjoy the clip which is a thriller of Namawee's film below:

Cheers Malaysians~

LOL

Found some jokes to cheer me up, hope they make ur day too like how they made mine...

1. Two guys were hiking through the jungle when they spotted a tiger who looked both hungry and fast. One of the guys reached into his pack and pulled out a pair of Nikes. His friend looked at him.

''Do you really think those shoes are going to make you run faster than that tiger?''
''I don't have to run faster than that tiger,'' his friend replied. ''I just have to run faster than you.''

2. A doctor was introducing autopsy to a fresh batch of medcine students in an operating theater with a real dead body. They formed a circle around the dead body.

The doctor said to the students "the first thing you need to study medicine is to conquer your fear". he then suddenly inserted his finger up the dead body's arse, pulled it out and licked his finger. Much to the disbelief of the students.

Then he pointed at one student and ordered him with authority to do the same. The student reluctantly but quickly followed suit.

The doctor then said to the students "the second thing you need is to be very observant.

Notice that i inserted my index finger but licked middle finger".

3.Q: Why six is afraid of seven?

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A: Because 7 8 (ate) 9

LOL, Have a nice day peeps~

Chopped~

A drastic change over the weekend in chronological order....

A snapshot of me when I was at work on Friday~ I would just want to see how bad my hair is....

Right after the visit to D'sirez on Sunday~

Managed to fake a smile with great emphasis on my fugly teeth...

Forced a smile the next day, after work, after receiving critics and compliments-Monday~

What have I done?????? I burnt a hole in my purse and I obviously am not satisfied!!!!!!!! The usual me after every haircut, not once I'll like it..... I don't even want to look at the mirror for more than 3secs......... I should have taken d safer route, to re-bond but I do not want to waste 5 freaking long hours and lose more hair yada yada yada.... I try to like dis new look but I look damn weird, so not-Christina that I know...

However, there are a few who really like my hair, n they are my boysss who said, 'miss, I like ur hair', 'miss, dis style suites u' and a few male colleagues of mine....

My girls on the other hand gave me reactions such as, 'miss, y so short', 'miss, wat makes u cut ur hair', and gave a wat's-wrong-wif-ur-eyes look to boys who complimented me and a few female colleagues of mine who stated their preference of me with my long hair right in front of my face....

Funny huh, but I never trust male's opinion becoz I think out of 10, 11 of them have bad taste... This explains the hairdresser's choice of style on me, he confirmed and ensured me that it will look nice on me and yes it does, only from some of the male's eyes.... I think he has forgotten that I am a female....

What should I do to make my hair grow longer faster??? Any food or drinks??? or cream??? or SPELL??? Anything???

For the time being, I'll just have to keep telling some white lies to myself, 'I look awesome, freaking hot in dis short hot style'......... sigh~

My Champion~

Participated as a lecturer in-charge, I had jittery feelings when my students were debating... Yup, a debate was held 2 weeks ago, to be specific, an inter-faculty debate... So, I was assigned to look for debaters from the Science Faculty and they didn't fail me... From the beginning, my sixth sense told me they are so going to win it and they did!!!!! One of them even walked away with the best speaker title-he doesn't talk much but when he opens his mouth, he impresses people with his wisdom and the way he phrases his words, definitely not an empty vessel...

I was there watching them, clapping for them, giving morale support in all 3 rounds... I remembered how nervous I was when they were up against Faculty of Arts and Social Science (the faculty I belong to) because the debaters were equally good (I know because I taught 2 of them before).. Thanks to my kids enthusiasm and great showmanship, they won... The 1st and final round were not difficult for them, I actually pity their opponents as my kids were rather harsh and did not give them 'face'....

I learn how difficult debating is, the preparation, anxiety and butterfly in the stomach they have to bear-it was my first time watching a debate, I learn a lot in terms of the rules, qualities that adjudicators look for in a debater and the don'ts... The organizing committee assured me they will make this a yearly event and I am looking forward to the next one which will be held in conjunction with the uni 10th anniversary... Of course, I hope I'll encounter a few outstanding students when I teach English for Science this coming January and send them out to retain their trophy...

their glorious moment... my hat goes off to all 3 of you...

the WINNERS + their proud lecturers!!!

Sam Tsui!! Sam Tsui!!

Do you know who Sam TSUI is???

He is like a magician cum singer, b'coz he has turned songs I hate to I can't say NO to anymore...

Not only that, he can turn songs which are already nice to something NICER....

I hated 'Love the Way U Lie' (who love lies?? ) and any Lady Gaga's song coz she's a nuisance to me....

Thanks to Sam Tsui, those songs are music to my ears now...

He is simply AWESOME....

Hear him sing:

Born This Way

Love the Way You Lie

King of Anything

Truly amazing, isn't he???

p/s: totally agree with one of the comments by a youtuber: HOW IS THIS GUY NOT FAMOUS YET!?!

Having good traits...

Is a very bad thing.....

you'll be reprimanded most of the time, though you tried to not to be involved....

you'll not know how others felt towards you, though you thought you've given your 100%...

you'll end up with many unanswered questions, though you thought you've managed to get things settled...

you'll continue receiving orders from the superior, though you had never wanted to be a servant...

Having contact with human beings on a daily basis has become a very sickening task for me these days...

Human + their traits, either u embrace them or have to accept them (in a forceful manner) because they are the people we meet every single day, in other words, you don't seem to have any choice... be it your colleagues, housemates, family, whoever they are, we need to accept their original self, you can choose to disagree with him or her, but in d end one of the parties must take a step back....

Humans are creatures with feelings....

Do not always think about yourself, try putting yourself in others shoe...

I always believe in karma, what you do to others, others will do the same to you...

You wont lose anything if you just be a lil' humble & modest (in fact you have everything to gain), bragging bout how great or how busy you are will not make any difference...

So, STOP thinking bout 'I, me & myself', replace them with 'you, he & she'....

Cheers~

Daddy-Daughter Day

After spending an afternoon with my dad, I wish today's afternoon is longer... We rarely have this kind of outing, though it's a normal one where we watched a movie, had tea and did grocery shopping but we had a long chat...

Your lil' girl has grown up a lot, though you have never shown any affection after her primary years, she still feel the love you've showering her all along...

Your hair has turned all white since she's even forgotten when but you refused to dye your hair-you deemed it's 'cool'..

When you mentioned your tooth is aching, her heart skipped a beat...

Anyway, your lil' girl feels like a lil' girl again today, we shall do these more often and spend more quality time together..

Happy Daddy's Day to all the Daddys in the world... We, the sons and daughters LOVE you a lot, as always!!!

I shall end this entry with a Miley Cyrus' song...

I used to be..

very tough,

very rational,

very clear,

very straightforward,

very naive...

I'm now...

very fragile,

very irrational,

very uncertain.

and some of my negativities have worsen..

I'm now more..

pessimistic,

hot tempered,

unforgiving,

self-centered,

realistic.

I need to know people are NOT going to change no matter how hard I wanna change them.

I can't expect people to behave the way I want them to be.

I've been very irrational, I've even thought of giving everything up, I mean every single thing (animate & inanimate) I have now and start everything all over again at god-knows-where-as-long-as-no-one-knows-me-there but I'm reluctant to leave, I'm terrified, can I blend in, can I survive, I will face tonnes of obstacles and I will be terribly lonely, so ya all these are bullshits..

Bullshits come when I'm irrational...

Tears come along with bullshits...

and Heartache tops it all....

can u see how many 'I' are there? realize how self-centered I am today? who created all these bullshits? this idiotic blog owner....

'I am sorry' is a more common phrase or more preferred phrase than 'I love you' recently...

I thought I can be very firm with my decision, apparently I am not...

I thought of talking to my friends, but I am afraid they will be on my side...

Petty stuff has just become a big issue-who's fault? again, it's this idiotic blog owner...

I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!! I hate myself!!

eff myself, such a drama queen, wtf trying to get ppl's attention-yeah right, as if this is going to work... only cute, small, pretty babes have d license of doing this.. who on earth will notice dis fugly buffalo?

Lovey ♥ Dovey

Do not ♥ one, not two, but love the one who loves you too

Do not ♥ three, not four, but love the one who loves you more

Do not ♥ five, not six, but love the one who truly sticks

Do not ♥ seven, not eight, but love the one who's willing to wait

Do not ♥ nine, not ten, but love the one who'll love you till the end

by Amirah Aina (my ex-coursemate)

OK-Wat an Eye Opener

Stumbled upon an article entitled O.K-yup, the 2 alphabets we use all the time.... I find it very intriguing, so do read or at least skim and scan thru the article.

It crops up in our speech dozens of times every day, although it apparently means little. So how did the word "OK" conquer the world, asks Allan Metcalf.

"OK" is one of the most frequently used and recognised words in the world.

It is also one of the oddest expressions ever invented. But this oddity may in large measure account for its popularity.

It's odd-looking. It's a word that looks and sounds like an abbreviation, an acronym.

We generally spell it OK - the spelling okay is relatively recent, and still relatively rare - and we pronounce it not "ock" but by sounding the names of the letters O and K.

Visually, OK pairs the completely round O with the completely straight lines of K.

So both in speech and in writing OK stands out clearly, easily distinguished from other words, and yet it uses simple sounds that are familiar to a multitude of languages.

Almost every language has an O vowel, a K consonant, and an A vowel. So OK is a very distinctive combination of very familiar elements. And that's one reason it's so successful. OK stands apart.

Ordinarily a word so odd, so distinctive from others, wouldn't be allowed in a language to begin with. As a general rule, a language allows new words only when they resemble familiar ones.

Clever coinages may be laughed at and enjoyed, but hardly ever adopted by users of the language.

So it was in Boston, Massachusetts, USA, in the late 1830s, when newspaper editors enjoyed inventing fanciful abbreviations, like "WOOOFC" for "with one of our first citizens" and OW for "all right".

Needless to say, neither of these found a permanent place in the language. But they provided the unusual context that enabled the creation of OK.

On 23 March 1839, OK was introduced to the world on the second page of the Boston Morning Post, in the midst of a long paragraph, as "o.k. (all correct)".

How this weak joke survived at all, instead of vanishing like its counterparts, is a matter of lucky coincidence involving the American presidential election of 1840.

One candidate, Martin Van Buren, was nicknamed Old Kinderhook, and there was a false tale that a previous American president couldn't spell properly and thus would approve documents with an "OK", thinking it was the abbreviation for "all correct".

Within a decade, people began actually marking OK on documents and using OK on the telegraph to signal that all was well. So OK had found its niche, being easy to say or write and also distinctive enough to be clear.

But there was still only restricted use of OK. The misspelled abbreviation may have implied illiteracy to some, and OK was generally avoided in anything but business contexts, or in fictional dialogue by characters deemed to be rustic or illiterate.

Indeed, by and large American writers of fiction avoided OK altogether, even those like Mark Twain who freely used slang.

But in the 20th Century OK moved from margin to mainstream, gradually becoming a staple of nearly everyone's conversation, no longer looked on as illiterate or slang.

Its true origin was gradually forgotten. OK used such familiar sounds that speakers of other languages, hearing it, could rethink it as an expression or abbreviation in their own language.

Thus it was taken into the Choctaw Native American language, whose expression "okeh" meant something like "it is so".

US President Woodrow Wilson, early in the 20th Century, lent his prestige by marking okeh on documents he approved.

And soon OK was to find its place in many languages as a reminder of a familiar word or abbreviation.

But what makes OK so useful that we incorporate it into so many conversations?

It's not that it was needed to "fill a gap" in any language. Before 1839, English speakers had "yes", "good", "fine", "excellent", "satisfactory", and "all right".

What OK provided that the others did not was neutrality, a way to affirm or to express agreement without having to offer an opinion.

Consider this dialogue: "Let's meet again this afternoon."

Reply: "OK."

Compare that with: "Let's meet again this afternoon."

Reply: "Wonderful!" or "If we must."

OK allows us to view a situation in simplest terms, just OK or not.

When someone falls down, the question is not "how well are you feeling?" but the more basic "are you OK?".

And any lingering stigma associated with OK is long since gone. Now OK is not out of place in the mouth of a US president like Barack Obama.

Speaking to schoolchildren in 2009 he said: "That's OK. Some of the most successful people in the world are the ones who've had the most failures."

The word would also easily slip from the mouth of a British prime minister like David Cameron.

And yet, despite its conquest of conversations the world over, there remain vast areas of language where OK is scarcely to be found.

You won't find OK in prepared speeches. Indeed, most formal speeches and reports are free of OK.

Modern English translations of the Bible remain almost entirely OK-free. Many a published book has not a single instance of OK.

But OK still rules over the vast domain of our conversation.

Allan Metcalf is the author of OK: The Improbable Story of America's Greatest Word.

Original article can be found here

Me at a Prom Nite?

My 'favourite' bunch of kids managed to persuade me to a Prom Nite... I hesitated at first but after considering, I made myself present b'coz I have had many memorable moments with them, besides they'll be graduating... I didn't regret attending it, in fact I did have a lot of fun and of coz I felt 'young' again mixing with them... Their prom nite was nothing like any that I have attended be it in uni (there's only 1 anyway) or school... I had a date who treated me like a QUEEN & several handsome boys asking me for a dance despite my poor dancing skill-I was holding myself back initially but as always after being persuaded (and of coz did not wanna appear 'not sporting') I hit d floor with the naughtiest fella followed by a few others... have I danced before, I couldn't remember b'coz I wasn't a popular girl back in my school... it was FUN doing some nonsensical ballroom dancing!!! how many chances like that would I have in my life?

so, this is my tall, dark & handsome date who look like my younger brother... sigh~

my date was my advisee's boyf's bestfrend... wat a complex relationship.. anyhow, we know each other and are relatively close... my advisee is a proud UTAR product, I am too very proud to be her advisor....

this is the Chairman of the Prom Nite... did I mention d theme? it's Mystical Twilight.. all thanks to this young lady, her coursemates and I had a whole lot of fun that nite...

while this young man here is the vice chairman.. so he played a relatively significant role in making sure the prom nite a success...

my 2 naughty advisees (excluding the vice chairman) and their girlf-they looked so alike, don't they... I am pretty sure they won't exclude me from their fairytale wedding...

my lovely psychology girls...

groupie 1 with the boys... 3 of them are my advisees who 'visit' me frequently & cheer me up whenever they need to... so, who is advising who?

they wanted to look taller than I am, so their wishes were granted...

final groupie with d boys, a good-looking group I supposed... they looked so different I cannot recognise d 1 on my right... d 1 on my left actually walked away with the prom king title-he's d number 1 joker of the batch, his cheekiness in my very 1st class in UTAR is still very vivid...

all of them have d power, particularly their cheekiness to make me laugh non-stop.. I guess they made d right choice, to major in psychology... they are a great bunch of people, minus their laziness... they are now doing their internship, so they won't be around to cheer me up, I kinda miss them already... but I'll miss them more after they graduate...

Back with Bruises

I can't accept d fact dat I actually fell and hurt my knees.... My last fall was more than 10 years ago-if I'm not wrong, it's when I learn to ride a bike... It's ridiculous.... I laugh whenever it crosses my mind... Still can't accept d wound despite d pain it causes me- bending and straightening my legs, going up n down d stairs are nitemares... Couldn't do anything except

TAHAN-I appear as if I am 'badly injured'.

15minutes before I fell, I was:

in an antique car in front of Maritime Museum..

30 minutes, before I fell, I was:

posing on a trishaw, looking very happy b'coz it's my 1st time on a trishaw, sight-seeing from a trishaw... never know I will fell....

anyway, I managed to walk for another 6hours before I clean my wound etc etc.. So, what did I do after I fell?

dropped by the must visit A'Famosa..

and the Stadhuys...

met my dear friend, Chai lao shi and ate satay celup at Jalan Ong Kim Wee..

finally, spent hours at Jonker Street...

and my knees were freaking painful d next day, so we didn't do much but we walked quite a lot...

I kinda hate bathing dis few days, it's as if hundreds of needles poking my knees when water touches me... grrrr... but, I have to shower...

Do pray for my speedy recovery, I need to attend yoga class and I need to drive home.... and of coz I dun wan to appear 'cacat' in front of my new batch of students...

Do U Know why Your Prayers were not answered?

GOD CALLING

God : Hello. Did you call Me?
Me : Called You? No. Who is this?
God : This is GOD. I heard your prayers. So I thought I will chat.

Me : I do pray. Just makes me feel good. I am actually busy now.
I am in the midst of something. (Studying theology!)

God : What are you busy at? Ants are busy too.
Me : Don't know, but I can't find free time.
Life has become like rush hour all the time.
God : Sure.
Activity gets you busy.
But productivity gets you results.
Activity consumes time.
Productivity frees it.

Me : I understand, but I still can't figure out.
By the way, I was not expecting YOU would call.
God : Well, I wanted to resolve your fight for time.
Give you some clarity.

Me : Tell me, why has life become complicated now ?
God : Stop analyzing life. Just live it.
Analysis is what makes it complicated.

Me : Why are we then constantly unhappy ?
God : Your today is the tomorrow that you worried about yesterday.
You are worrying because you are analyzing.
Worrying has become your habit.
That's why you are not happy.

Me : But how can we not worry when there is so much uncertainty ?
God : Uncertainty is inevitable, but worrying is optional.
Me : But then, there is so much pain due to uncertainty. ..
God : Pain is inevitable, but suffering is optional.

Me : If suffering is optional, why do good people always suffer ?
God : Diamonds cannot be polished without friction.
Gold cannot be purified without fire.
Good people go through trials, but don't suffer.
With that experience their life becomes better, not bitter.
Me : You mean to say such experience is useful ?
God : Yes.
In every term, Experience is a hard teacher.
She gives the test first and the lessons afterwards.

Me : But still, why should we go through such tests ?
Why can't we be free from problems ?
God : Problems are
P urposeful
R oadblocks
O ffering
B eneficial
L essons to
E nhance
M ental
S trength.

Inner strength comes from struggle and endurance,
not when you are free from problems.

Me : Frankly in the midst of so many problems,
we don't know where we are heading...
God : If you look outside you will not know where you are heading.
Look inside.
Looking outside, you dream.
Looking inside, you awaken.
Eyes provide sight.
Heart provides insight.

Me : Sometimes not succeeding fast seems to
hurt more than moving in the right direction.
What should I do ?
God : Success is a measure as decided by others.
Satisfaction is a measure as decided by you.
Knowing the road ahead is more satisfying than knowing you rode ahead.
You work with the compass.
Let others work with the clock.

Me : In tough times, how do you stay motivated ?
God : Always look at how far you have come rather
than how far you have to go.
Always count your blessings, not what you are missing.

Me : What surprises you about people ?
God : When they suffer they ask, "why me?"
When they prosper, they never ask "Why me?"
Everyone wishes to have truth on their side,
but few want to be on the side of the truth.

Me : Sometimes I ask, who am I, why am I here.
I can't get the answer.
God : Seek not to find who you are, but to determine who you want to be.
Stop looking for a purpose as to why you are here.
Create it.
Life is not a process of discovery, but a process of creation.

Me : How can I get the best out of life ?
God : Face your past without regret.
Handle your present with confidence.
Prepare for the future without fear.

Me : One last question.
Sometimes I feel my prayers are not answered.
God : There are no unanswered prayers.
At times the answer is NO.

Me : Thank you for this wonderful chat.
I am so happy to start the New Day with a new sense of inspiration.
God : Well!
Keep the faith and drop the fear.
Don't believe your doubts and doubt your beliefs.
Life is a mystery to solve, not a problem to resolve.
Trust Me. Live by faith and not by sight.
Life is wonderful if you know how to live.

Mummy's Cooking~

In conjunction with Mother's Day, (and of coz staying 60+km away from Sitiawan), I shall pay tribute to my mom by sharing her 2 decent dishes which are very much hok chiew in nature...

1. White Kueh Soup-I coin the name, I have no idea what is it called.. d 'thick mee' is made of rice, add some yong tau fu and voila, a decent nice bowl of mee soup (which is very filling, don't underestimate the size)...

2. Red Wine Mee Suah-I guess this deserves no introduction...

red wine + ginger (yes, I can only accept ginger cooked in this manner -fyi, ginger is a big no no in my meal, once i smell it, i will not touch the whole dish at all) + mee suah + chicken..

Uber Dissatisfy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Dis is another shitty post, after going thru a shitty day...

I nearly bang my head to the wall...

can u believe it, i spend my saturday in this small lil' 'microwave' room in kampar...

i refuted wat my students said bout my life-I DON'T HAVE ANY!!! but now i couldn't agree more...

i actually have no where to go and nothing to do other than work and studies...

besides, even if i take leave, i'll be sitting at home watching tv-damn it, anyone out there spend his/her everyday like me?

but, i need to consider every lil' single thing before i take leave, meetings that i cannot afford to miss, task that i should do etc etc.

damn it!!!!!!!

wat is my aim of living now-i couldn't think of any?

burning myself to enlighten the others-yeah right, some don't give a damn to me... teaching is not as simple as it appears to be, especially when u r teaching d big buffaloes...

pleasing my colleagues by agreeing to any of their requests-so, who's out there to agree to me??

or just to make end meets?

and that brings me to the next shit of this entry... pardon all the s***...

had a lil' chat wif a gfren last nite...

voila, i got an insight on another couple's dating style which in d end makes me looks like a weirdo... is wat she's doing resemble every single girl out there and is that d norm???

having nothing to do or having too much to do but dunno where to start makes me think a lot... when i think a lot, i'll try to find fault... when i try to find fault i'll be upset... when i'm upset, i'll react abnormally....

dis is how sucky my saturday is..

Student Survey

I used to receive some good comments from my students (majority were from my 1st semester students), on my appearance and some on my voice projection.. I took those and tried to improve... Now, after teaching for more than 10 semesters, I receive some rather negative comments showing how dissatisfy they are to me, again nothing to do with my teaching... So, student survey doesn't affect me much now, but today my H.O.D sent all of us an email regarding student survey and I thought sth serious might have cropped up, to my surprise, it's a youtube link..

Check out how students nowadays comment on their lecturer's teaching....

p/s: Faeiz, if u ever ever get comments like that, do SHARE...

We JUST DON'T LEARN!

This is YOU!

This is ME!

This IS US!

And then let's cry together later when the deadline comes.

T________T

We JUST DON'T LEARN! from The Doddle Blog

p/s: that is so me, I'm in the exact similar state right now..................