HaPPier??

in a good mood-better compare to d last few days, post some junks/jokes from my mail.. though still in a rather confused state but i'm glad i've finished writing my fyp and finally d 3rd paper, i actually came out early-yeah i know how to do most of d ques, hope dis 1 won't disapoint me like d previous 2.. *phew*
d pix/jokes bottom mite b a litte out-dated/a bit lame but i wan them to b here so my blog won't sound so sad..

Que Sera Sera..

2 more paper to go...
(not gonna be a nice post, ntg but complains-i advice u to skip it if u r not in a pleasant mood)

d previous 2, i dun think i do well..
-literature: not enuff time to look through, wat more check my grammar.
-french: also not enuff time, grammar aside, d vocab is SUPER TOUGH, i can't predict wat the texts were saying, d title of d essay was 'wat u c urself in 10 years time, will u b married, how many children u'll b having, wat job u'll b doing' --> dis is ridiculous, wif my limited vocab n d newly learnt future simple tense, i can't produce dat essay under so much pressure.. in d end, my face turn as black as 'pou ching tian' and yes i cried my heart out when i enter my room..

am i gonna graduate with 1st class??
*keeping my finger cross*
though many think grade is not important, seriously me too.. high cgpa doesnt mean u can work well.. but, there's alwiz dis urge in me (not me only but other undergraduate-i'm pretty sure)to do well and score as high as possible..

all these pressure so unbearable.. with exam and fyp to submit, n future which need serious consideration, AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!
i need a long break-is 1 month long enuff after 18 years of study???
however, i'm longing for d master program-how ironic, i m so afraid of exam yet i still wanna further my study..

of late, i have been doing a lot of thinking but all ended up in tears..
wat i wan? wat i wan to b? where i wanna stay after dis? should i apply for more jobs but end up rejecting some becoz applied blindly without understanding the nature of the work?
d feeling of reluctance to leave ukm is growing-wat xia fong said is apparently pointing to me besides her-yes, i do not wan to leave dis comfort zone..
to avoid myself from crying more, dis is wat i bear in mind
-Que Sera Sera-
recognize dis song, "que sera sera, wateva will b will b"
*sigh*

thanx mel for comforting me..
yup, i will listen to u, put aside all the thought and concentrate on my study + fyp, shud stop crying too like wat u said eyes will become tiny, face will grow bigger after crying, outcome: 1 big fat ugly girl.. how to attend interviews, meet people and get married in d future?
(sounds funny, but it's quite true)

D Ultimate Experience..

currently, my sight is blurred wif tears.. not dat i'm upset/frustrated but it's due to some indescriable feelings.. i dunno whether other undergraduates hav dis feeling but frankly, i m reluctant to end my uni life, there's dis unwillingness dat provoke me to stay in ukm-but it's impossible unless i work for ukm-ppbl to b specific, there's dis sense of belonging in me now, is like my 2nd home.. i dun wish to enter d corporate world nemore?? maybe i shud just make my ambition -which i wrote during primary 6- come true..
i'll b leaving uni in less den 1 month -yes, it's gonna b hectic wif exams, f.y.p, & mulling over my future yet dis feeling of hesitant grew stronger..

i wasn't a bright student during my primary & secondary years-did poorly in spm/very average/below par perhaps- but somehow i manage to shine n become d cream of the crop here.. i mite hav make d right choice and i hav no regret doing dis course though many hav mistaken it as TESL which realli annoyed me... needless to say, most of d lecturers i met are supportive and ready to lend a hand anytime/anywhere-couldn't thank them more (words can't describe how thankful i m)-oni in PPBL i think coz i dun feel welcome when i do some other courses.. there were some hardtimes but it all ended up pretty well..

wat adds to my reluctance is after i became part of Centre for Gender Research (CGR)where i worked as a Research Assistant (R.A), thanx to angie and my supervisor who persuaded me to join them.. attended 3 workshops, where i learnt a lot-bout sexism, gender biasness in language, gender neutral, and other catchy topics reagrding gender.. apart from that, i get to enjoy lavish life in prestigous hotels.. d team was and will always b superb under d guidance of the iron lady.. i feel 'small' when i was wif them, somehow inferior, afraid dat i wud fail to comprehend or catch up wif their pace -i m rather slow-, not IT/technology literate.. i wish to b part of CGR in the future as i saw numerous interesting upcoming research -dis is wat i'm yearning for-

my final workshop and d previous ones have left a mark in me..i wud neva wan to forget those experience..



the Sexist team-which is rather 'sexy' wif their signature pose *how adorable*
they work really really hard (which explain d panda eyes they have), thier schedule are very pack wif all sorts of events yet they still manage to produce excellent work.. cracking joke anytime they wan, enjoy their meals, love their research and d list goes on.. though i hav little sleep, my mind did not wander about, i hav 100% concentration during meetings, n am fairly energetic most of d time (dis is an amazement that d team can do to me).. i wud miss them very very much if i happen to leave ukm but will be extremely pleasant if i get to work wif them in d future..
i love u guys very much-BESTEST & COOLEST lecturers i've ever met-
from left to right: Dr.Zarina, Dr.Subakir, Mr.AJ, Dr.CK..



dis is Dr.Bahiyah, d head of CGR, a well-known iron lady... she's strong mentally and physically (i tell u, her bags r really heavy, i need to carry them wif both hands but she can do it wif 1).. a great multi-tasker as well wif good time management (she can really do many works at 1 time).. when i 1st met her, (She was 1 of my lecturer) her loud voice and fierce expression scare me but now when i get to know her my perception has changed-she wasn't dat scary after all, in fact she's a pretty nice lady.. she's my idol-i wan to b as successful as she is in d future, leading & managing numerous researches, a dedicated lecturer & a caring mom...
(p/s: ignore d quality of d photo n me-who looked fairly ugly- as it's taken last minute wif my not-so-canggih hp)

final words, it's time for revison.. final exam is just around d corner, do not procrastinate, utilize time to d fullest and leave d rest to god..
remember it's 99% hardwork and 1% luck..
-dis msg is just a reminder to my coursemates, uni frends, not forgetting my hometown frends whom i loved most, any final undergraduates who happen to come across my entry and me, d procrastinator who like to do things last minute recently-

Slow Dance~

SLOW DANCE

Have you ever
watched kids
On a merry-go-round?
Or listened to the rain
Slapping on the ground?

Ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight?
Or gazed at the sun into the fading night?

You better slow down.
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.

Do you run through each day
On the fly?

When you ask How are you?
Do you hear the reply?

When the day is done, do you lie in your bed
With the next hundred chores running through
your head?

You'd better slow down
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.

Ever told your child,
We'll do it tomorrow?
And in your haste,
Not see his sorrow?

Ever lost touch,
Let a good friendship die
Cause you never had time
To call and say,'Hi'

You'd better slow down.
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.

When you run so fast to get somewhere
You miss half the fun of getting there.

When you worry and hurry through your day,
It is like an unopened gift....
Thrown away.

Life is not a race..
Do take it slower
Hear the music
Before the song is over.



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This poem was written by a terminally ill young girl in a New York Hospital

This young girl has 6 months left to live, and as her dying wish, she wanted to send a letter telling everyone to live their life to the fullest, since she never will. She'll never make it to prom, graduate from high school, or get married and have a
family of her own..


It was sent by a medical doctor
Dr.
Dennis Shields, Professor
Department of Developmental and Molecular Biology
1300 Morris Park Avenue
Bronx< /SPAN> , New York
10461

A Farewell to Remember

gone through delighted and sorrowing moment as 1 of ukm chinese orchestra members in 3 years- d 1st ever club i was n still am interested to..
it all ended well yesterday when d juniors throw us a great farewell dinner and gave us a token of appreciation.. i'm gonna miss them very much, d new, previous and d old committee..... it was a pretty tiring day for me but the juniors were just too devoted in organizing d event-n i'm very very proud of them..

to make things short, we went to 'hoi tong', d famous but hidden steamboat restaurant for dinner-a recommended place for those who can eat a horse but not to those like me..

shall let d pics do d talking-i'm tired....


d so-called seniors sitting together.. oops, hui xin d newly elected principal lost her way..


half groupies... 10 of us in 2 tables... notice there's oni 9 human? *chuan bing missing in action


my boss.. dis is d 3rd generation, so he's d grandpa now..



pam, d great drummer a.k.a david tao's die hard fan was and will alwiz b my bestie..



gorgeous girl, xian yin-she can b soft but loud n strict at d same time.. no doubt a talented liu xin player as well..



my sifu, chuan bing... he learn and play er hu perfectly well in less den 2 years.. ntg is impossible if u practise hard, said my sifu..



d new prezzy, handsome isnt he.. haha, good-looking, clever n talented.. as old as my bro but y my bro has ntg like him.. anyhow, i'm sure he'll b a dedicated prezzy, leading d club to greater heights.. looking forward to d concert, all d best..



d vice prezzy who can't take a proper pic.. can b notty but endearing at d same time.. a very keen learner-play like a pro in less den 1 year... *salute*



d finance minister.. he look familiar doesn't he??? when he play di zi, his eyes were round and big just like d cat -puss in boots- in shrek.. haha, how adorable..



d vice money man.. he can b quiet but a very thoughtful boy indeed.. always walk me bk to my hostel becoz i was afraid of d u-know-who on campus..



groupies-before we left...... so many of us, can imagine how expensive d meal was..


d karaoke session... k, i tot i wud b isolated becoz i don't read mandarin and didnt really listen to most of d up-to-date songs.. but i was so so wrong...
i get to sing d 1 n oni chinese song i know-feng shou kuai le- hahahaha n a few english songs...


d juniors were so lovable-they tried to read me those chinese characters so dat i can sing... ya ya, regretted for not attending chinese school..


dunno y they get to capture me holding d microphone again, i hav oni hold not more den 5 times i think... ya, i know they like to capture d ugly side of me..


after 2 hours of singing, we went yum cha pulak... oni get bk at 3am.. *sweat*
but didnt regret coz it wud probably b my last time hanging out wif them though i was damn sleepy n tired after a very long day..

my dear juniors, work hard and i wish u guys success in advance for d upcoming concert.. do inform me, n i will b more den happy to b d audience... hehe, if i happen to work nearby, den i'll practise and perhaps perform together wif d rest of u...

Dean's Award...

yea, it's my fifth time, 1 more to go and i'll hav d full collection of dean's certs-d greatest achievement in my life alongside wif my queen's guide award.. wud also b d 1 i will remember foreva becoz d vice dean announce my name in d ceremony.. somehow, dis ceremony did manage to inject some confidence in me after several unfortunate events.. but, look at d pic.. *speechless* those were my frends from d same program also d cream of d crop..

Master Pieces

today, 8th April-was my final poster presentation...
as predicted-literature is way challenging compare to other courses..
throughout my years in uni-we were assigned to produce posters-using images to portray elements taught in class-sounds easy, it's not...
in our final 3 sem, we have produced 3 posters..
to my dearest sweetest frend 'u know who u r' who alwiz lend a hand, u r truly & greatly appreciated...
i can't thank u more n i'll definately miss shouting at u, working till d wee hour, having supper after d hard work which leave me feeling fat..
many thanx and all d credits r for u, all d compliments lecturer gave were for u as well..

Have a look at d marvelous posters by d brilliant/obedient designer based on my partner alwani and i idea- we r d lady boss who oni know ntg but to give order..

'What Lies Beneath' - our very 1st poster done at d very last minute... But it turned out really nice, which was also my favourite... it's based on d notion of pyschoanalysis in lit -wouldn't wanna say much bout it 1st, i dun really remember d issues i learnt; 2nd, shouldn't b discussing d boring stuff related to studies here rite?

'Silent Awakening'-differences are rather vivid in dis poster, agree?? hope so coz it's on comparison..

Poster Finale-comparative lit, identifying similarities n differences in 2 chosen movies.. it turned out ok even though i'm not really sure wif my points..
wateva it is, i'm glad dat it's over but at d same time, i'll b missing dis unique way of assessing..

p/s: i break my own promise-tot wanna stop blogging till i'm really free, but just can't resist d temptation to blog coz blogging is d oni way for me to loosen up and breath..

Mon classe de Française..

C'est notre dernier classe..
Je ne parle pas facilement, ne pas pouvoir écouter et écrire correctement bien que je assiste à tout les cours..

La femme en bleu est mon professeur; elle s'appelle madame suzy; elle est tres petite mais elle a une grande personnalité.
Mon professeur manque beaucoup lorsque je quitte de l'université.

Les autres sont mes amies..
Ils sont amusant et très unique..
Nous apprenons francaise ensemble..
Nous avons fini de prendre des cours de français aujourd'hui..

Bonne chance pour ton examen. Je suis sûr que tu vas faire des merveilles.
Au revoir tout le monde..
à bientôt
Bises...

Acronym..

C	Cheesy
H	Hot
R	Respectable
I	Innocent
S	Silly
T	Terrific
I	Irresistible
N	Normal
A	Appreciative

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S	Skillful
O	Overwhelming
O	Organic
K	Keen
B	Bold
E	Elitist
N	Nerdy
G	Graceful

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come across dis (my acronym) in marcus's blog-which 1? sook beng or christina best describe me-i vote for sook beng...
just another entry, b4 i head to 'hell'.....
has been long since i last check my frends' blog-they r no doubt very creative writers..
i'll miss blogging very much-dat's for sure...
finally to all final year students aka my dear frends -good luck, work hard, study smart, love wateva u r doing & do treasure these final moments...
Break A Leg!!

Announcement

Attention: All blogging activities wud b put on hold till mid/end of April…

Blogger needs 100% concentration on her studies…
Only books, journal, reading material, poems, short stories, and assignments are allowed in her life for d time being…
She’s having many ups & downs with her f.y.p
She’s controlling her temper.
She’s sad as her uni life is ending in a few weeks time.
She’s regretting for some wrongly-made decision.
She’s missing her lecturers & workload already.
She’s afraid, she ain’t gonna get what she wants.
She’s in dilemma.

She needs to talk to someone
She needs some clarification
She needs time
She wants answer
She wants confirmation

To enter d corporate world or to stay on to uni life?
Moving on to another phase of life is not a fun thing after all..