Troubled Me

I’m very upset… seriously very disturb…
I cried, yes… dis was my 1st time in dis final sem.. I dun wan to bcoz it has been long since I last sob..
Is like d end of d world even though things wud get better-it’s oni d matter of time…
My fringe looked horrible!!!!! I can’t accept d fact that it was so short!!!
N I cried becoz of this..
Already unhappy wif my not-so-thin figure n now dis awful hair saddened me more..
Yes, fringe wud grow but how m I suppose to look presentable in dis ‘waiting-for-hair-to-grow’ period??? I just can’t, I ain’t versatile when it comes to hairstyles.. prefer to stick it to d dull, old look I used to have… *sigh*
Suffering from confident breakdown…
I m googling for hairstyles while writing dis instead of studying for my quiz-guess dis stupid haircut not oni disapoint me but help me flunk my quiz..
To those who can suggest or bring me to a reliable saloon where I can get d most suitable hairdo, I’ll treat him/her to d restaurant of his/her choice!!!
-just a poor student, but will try-
Grrrrrr… look at me, how anxious and desperate I am to wanna appear passable before stepping out of uni n start facing d real world!!

People perception is very important to me, I got so upset when people laugh at me..
Which explain y I’m so afraid to ask question / voice my opinion..
Which explain y I cried last nite, everyone I met gave me a stare n start giggling away..

I’m just a typical girl, ain’t i-d 1 who put emphasis on d look fairly more den inner beauty- which girl don’t??
Detesting who I am, n d way I am-everything, from head to nose, to toe, internally, externally..
I dun wanna b plum, I dun wanna b d ‘giant’ in d group, I dun wanna b shy, I dun wanna walk wif my head down, I dun wanna b d average girl next door..

Throughout my life, I’ve neva done sth which make people go ‘wow’
I fail to impress myself, wat more shud I demand from other people?

-pardon me, if my post irritates u, u can opt to not read becoz dis is my realm n i do have d right to voice my anything i want here-

Forgive & Forget

Enmity is in d air...
(not love but hatred)

god has given us features which made every existing being in d world to b unique..
regardless of appearance or pyshologically, we r different unlike animals/plants/inanimate object..
every human being has their own perspective,
there wudn't b a set of person wif d same mind set except clone..
thus, arguement is unavoidable..
coping wif d letdown is a better solution den putting d blame on each other..

why can't we b tolerant???
is apologizing dat difficult to accomplish??
yes, i know every1 possesses great sense of decorum..
we musn't pollute our own dignity to please other people
do bear in mind, before any action is taken, b rationale, dun let anger suppress ur conscience..
forgive n forget, hope time will alleviate d ill feelings..

often, we cought in some tough circumstances like wat i'm facing now, embark in not one but 2 missions: wanting to pour oil on the the troubled waters!!
*sigh*

life is like a flight of steps leading up to where we want to b..
d steps are difficult to climb but there's no other route to make it to d top.. there might b hindrance along d way, it can b hectic or tranquil but wat eva it is, how we confront wif it mattered most..

Insomnia??

Gosh, it's 3am but i'm still awake doing my f.y.p/ blogging ...
i'm not sleepy nor tired though i've been running here n there since 10am..
hmmmm...
do u know wat r d consequences of not going to bed early??
!. acnes eruption
2. terribly sleepy in class d next day
3. eyes wud b extremely tiny
-these r the things which wud happen to me, dunno bout d others-they may face different consequences-

however, recently i dun get upset or feel any pressure (mood swing) which i always have in dis time of d month.. last tuesday was my 1st quiz n i handled it well, no anxiety, no stress, no butterfly in d stomach before n during d quiz..
hours later, i got my fringe cut-grrrr dun really like it becoz it's kinda short but wat to do, if i didnt get it trim shorter, it tends to grow very fast, den i'll have to make very frequent trip to d hair saloon..
appearance & look aside (i'm trying to accept d way i m now no matter how i hate it)

on d brighter side,
it really feels good to be happy...
crack some joke, do some crapping wif friends, chit-chatting, play some music, enjoy wat i'm engaging in (to b specific: my f.y.p/assignments), not forgetting to always wear a big smile on d face..
voila, u have a contented girl-me..

-i am loving all d 5 subjects (including my f.y.p) i'm taking this semester-
in french class last monday-we sang!!! can u believe it, we sang a french song wif terrible pronunciation of coz... we were exposed to a few french songs by Roch Voisine n Tété.. they r nice n simple coz beginner like me can figure out d meaning of d lyrics.. recommended my mua:
1. Laisse-la Réver
2. Je te senai Fidèle
3. A la Faveur de l'automne
4. Je reviendrai à Montréal (d 1 we sang)
another song by celine dion also is very nice, if i'm not mistaken is 'On ne change Pas' becoz our lecturer love to air d song while we were asked to do some exercises..

have to run now, it's nearly 4am, n i need to wake m y frend up in 3 hours time..
shall write again soon!!

Miracle do Happen!!!

finally finally finally....
there's internet access in my room...
happy coz i can surf d net, chat n blog anytime i wan, n for studies purposes also..
so i'll b an active blogger again.. kekeke..

hmmm, dis tuesday, my 1st quiz n i havent start revising.. how dead can i be??
wif internet connection, i bet it will b very last minute reading den...

Still Alive!

dis blog is not dead yeah...
is just dat d blogger is too bz wif her school work n kinda out of internet access..
n to those who still care for d blogger, she's still alive and bz searching for job- very kiasu coz she has just uploaded her cv in jobstreet.com

besides, ntg motivates me to write also coz received so little feedbacks..
haha, like wat shi jing said: no comment, no initiative to write..
but i'll try to blog more often if d hostel happen to have wi-fi service..

thats all..

Monkey-ing in d CAR!!

my 2nd day of cny, as usual-we got active oni at nite... so, we -wen, jon, t-pei n i-were heading back from a small acs reunion in bistro, teluk batik.. apparently, there are quite a number of traffic lights from teluk batik to sitiawan, so we grab d opportunity to snap some pictures which eventually turn out to be quite disastrous bcoz most of d time d traffic light turn green when we got there-how 'lucky'-



sempat 'peace' while driving, dats our jin wen...



d girls turn.. toothpaste company can consider hiring us to be their spokeperson



fail version 1: half of ah wen's face not in-pity him



fail version 2: cannot c t-pei n i, grrr.. jon isn't a skillful cameraman..



finally, dis pic turn out well becoz we reached my home.. so, no hurry but jon spoil it wif a fierce expression...

Me in RED!!

i look so red on d 1st day of cny for d 1st time ever in my life..
neva wore so red -from head to toe- b4, to my surprise-red is not in trend dis year, black is..
it doesn't matter wat i wear, just wanna story u guys a little bout my classmates back in secondary years...


these r d people whom i spent 2 years in acs- they r loud (d boys of coz) but friendly n loving.. needless to say, d gals were my very close ones-spend 3/4 of my life in school wif them... i enjoy their companion so much dat i wish i cud turn back d time.. though they drive me (d monitor) crazy but without them, my life wud b dull.



introducing my form 6 classmates-most of them (i think all of them) are single n availabe, they r cool, funny n approachable (dis pic look nice n casual)... hmm, using my blog to advertise my friends n d people i know-if i charge a small amount of money, i wud b quite rich...



dis fella in green is so call my dearest neighbour who lived opposite my housing area.. but he only come look for me when he needs my favour which is during stpm days.. haha, still remember him coming over a nite before d business paper, after i told him wat he need to read which is quite a lot, my mom got worried, scare he cnt finish revising but he smilling away....



d lawyers!!!!! they conquered d yakking session dat day with their loud voice-mr.teoh especially, we need to calm him down apparently...



our favourite teacher mdm. cheang poh yoke-cool and fun loving where students like to go to her cozy house and gossip-hehe, dats y, she has lotsa little birds telling her bout anything n everything in any part of d world.. sound eerie isnt it- so guys beware of ur every move..


cheerful faces in yong yong's place.... we hav d chin sisters n d beh sisters.. oni sean huey n i d odd ones...


d very 1st group -oni 2 persons in a group-who dropped by my house... ah leng n sean huey-they were alwiz d 1st to start visiting session...

Gong Hei Fatt Choy!!!

it's d 1st day of cny today...
but i'm blogging away...
i dun feel d cny heat nemore as i grew older..
i consume lesser oranges, cookies n drinks..
i receive even less ang pow despite the fact that i'm still eligible & unattached
everything seems to slow down n
i tend to become lazier..

it's kinda bored..
maybe it's due to d size of my family..
there's oni d 4 of us
n we ate pizza last nite
whereas i bet other familys had grand reunion dinner..

after i got up at 10.30am,
i went to d temple..
yes, i go there just for lunch n i visit d temple once a year...
not a devoted buddhist..
but dat doesn't mean i'm an atheist, i do believe in my religion..
it wasn't a fruitless trip after all coz i bump into my ex-sunday class buddys..
we studied, danced, laughed, washed crockery, every sunday during primary years occasionally washed ourself together wif d plates, fork n spoon but our friendship slowly fades away when we become adult..
at least i still can recognize them though they've transformed quite a lot..

as for now i'm just waiting for my friends to drop by..
it's great to catch up wif them coz i met some of them once a year or worse, once every 2 or 3 years...

i shall stop now,
shud utilize my free time to do something beneficial like my litterature assignment..
wif dat, Happy Chinese New Year & Happy Rat-ing Around like wat Dr.Jem told us to..

Gong Xi Fa Chai in Advance

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IMAGINE THE WORLD WITHOUT ENGINEERS!!!

i came across dis entry posted by tai leong, hmmm, very interesting indeed... so i re-post it here, he gave a very in-depth explanation bout civil engineering, but for people like me-dis will do..

engineers are indeed important (no wonder my mom likes engineers)

without mechanical engineer

without electrical & electronics engineer

without computer engineer

without civil engineer

without aeronautical engineer

wat bout linguist/language students??? arent we as vital as d engineers???

it's always dis way, arts students regardless of fields are neglected/put aside..

yes, becoz we r not good in math,chemistry,biology,physics ya da ya da ya da, we opt dis route-not dat we dun wanna b on d 'scientific' side..

though we were not chomsky/hymes, n lecturers knew it's impossible to produce 1- we are (at least i am) keen to enhance our command of language as well as contributing to d society with linguistic knowledge we attained in our uni years.. nevertheless, most of us will b embarking in any sphere related to writing & speaking... BUT,

can i b a writer if i'm not J.K Rowling, Lydia Teh, Adibah Amin?

can i b an editor if i'm not Lynette Low?

can i b a columnist if i'm not Marina Mahathir, Hoo Ban Khee, Davin Arul, Wong Chun Wai?

can i b a deejay if i'm not Adam C, Flyguy?

can i b a newscaster if i'm not Hong Ju Khee?

can i b a host if i'm not Sarimah Ibrahim, Marion Counter, Soo Kui Jien?

can i b a lecturer if i'm not Dr.Lee.S.K, Dr.Noraini, Dr.Yuen.C.K?