Tuesday, July 28, 2009

help?

i'm up to my neck................. teaching isnt difficult, just dat need to do some preparation b4 entering d class so d students wont die of boredom (recently, words couldnt come out n i mispelled or worst mispronounced-brain jam); writing on d other hand is difficult especially when u dont have any sounding board......... argggh, stuck, stuck, stuck...... n d paper is due in 7 weeks time.......... n d adviser-advisee thingy, *sigh*-i dun c d point for d adviser to type a report for his/her advisee, 25 students each is a lil' too much but thankfully mine r smarties, i assume they wouldnt b facing academic probs-zippp it, shouldnt complain, just get it down a.s.a.p!!!

so i tot at least i get to sit bk n relax, watch some tv, do some reading when i m home frm work, watch some tv, read d paper... nop, more work not marking as i m kinda good at it now but guiding my 12-year-old lil' bro who wil b sitting for his upsr to memo karangan den check on my housemates essays or watsoeva homework (related to english of coz, thank god i m sucky in math n economics, else i'll need to help them revise all d subjects)...... i've been a good samaritan helping ppl ard, so where's help when i need 1????????


when wil i b like dis again??????? smiling n err spreading my hands...

p/s: it's way pass my bedtime, 2am... not dat i took dat long to type dis, coz i was on d phone for almost 2hours n checking on some hot chicks pix, ended up a lil' depressed, y la dis chicks didnt limit their profiles?

Sunday, July 26, 2009

down...

d air-conditioner of my car spoilt...
becoz of dat i turned into 1 big b**** today...............
have been spending a lot on dat bloody car; d tyres, timing belt, honk, all sort of oil etc....
so d figures in my atm is running low..... i tot d car is supposed to b all good b4 it was sold to me-yeah right, oni idiot like me think dat...........

it's hard, i dun like to tell my parents how i really feel, my temper loses easily when i m home......
becozz of dat, my dad is unhappy n losses his temper too.....
my mom has warned me million n 1 time-dad has high-blood pressure, dun trigger his anger...
n idiotic me cnt stop it...............
f*** my hormone or pms???
pardon d pun..

i lock myself in my room.......
so, a cranky '16-year-old' stayed in d room n played games.......
didnt speak to neone, didnt chat to neone, dun giv a shit to nething...............
i can really turn into 1 big b****................
at d end of d day (which is approx 2 hours after i lose my temper & when i type 'is a anak derhaka' in my shout out n really mean it), i wish i could turn bk d time....

my mom was right, oni a few thou, i ll get it bk when i receive my pay at d end of d month... y create d fuss?
i angrily shriek dat i wish to sign up for slimming programme (unconsciously blurted it) which i always wanted to but i knw i wouldnt dare to undergo liposuction or bear watsoeva means of 'torture' or take d trouble to swallow pills..........

i'll foreva b f-i-t, pronounced as fat, moreover I dun hav self-disciplined, so no1 can b blamed….

I was perfectly joyful when I was in kampar though surrounded by petite, slim housemates n students…… dis thought oni occur when some slim, curvy girl frends of mine said they r flabby *i knw size does matter*-but fyi, dats like insulting me to d max……….

so, y is dis issue brought up????

Wat more, it’s d fav question of all time ‘got bf edi or not?’

*I m so not participating in any yum cha session in d future* kinda traumatized…

Every1 in my life is pressuring me, my mom, frends, even students….

hello, knocky knocky-I dun chase after guy, unlike some girls who will fight for their happiness.. so bear wif it, wif dis kinda appearance, I’ll need more time… n dun worry, I’ll let every1 knw once my prince charming found me ok-so, stop bothering wif dat million dollar question…

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

acne emergency

ee ooh, ee ooh....
acne emergency!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i neva need to worry bout acne my whole life, n now when i'm way too 'old' for dis, it happened..
there were bumps on my face nowadays, say goodbye to flawless skin....
*shud stick wif my philosophy: washing face with tap water n use cleanser once or twice-hav been doing dis my whole life... but stopped n use dunno wat shitty facial wash when i started working a year ago, look at d result...
initially common pimples, vary in size -i ignored them-
recently, not d common type but INFECTED pimple which swell -couldnt ignore it-
it was humangous, took over my left eyebag...

every1 was very concern- especially my students, some seemed to b extremely 'caring', some jokingly accused me for being a notty peeping tom *my students r so adorable, they turned my nitemare into sth witty............
n god knows y i hav 4 classes to attend on tues...
after listening to my students' prediction, i got quite worried....

so, i went to c a doctor (coz it's f.o.c-my uni panel clinic, y not right).......
d doc graduated from ukm leh (i hav more faith in him-crapping- but frankly, medicine frm ukm was strong--i used to recover in less den 3 days *during undergrad years though i dun fell sick dat often* after consuming pills frm Pusat Kesihatan UKM, how i miss my uni)


look at how colourful my pills were.....

so d doc said, after 6 weeks, i'll b fully recover... n i said , "sangat hodohlah doctor, 6 minggu baru boleh hilang ke?" straight on his face *i m oredi not very pretty, n dis is making me look horrible*
d doc answered, "kalau nak cepat hilang, pegi jumpa eye specialist buat pembedahan kecil"...
helooooo, i dun even dare to pierce my ears, wat more a surgery....................
in d end, of coz d coward me wouldnt opt to do the operation, i listen to d doc, apply d cream he prescribed and pray.....
plz pray together with me *i neva know i'm dis pious*


Monday, July 20, 2009

WORTH Pondering

Isn't it amazing that George Carlin - comedian of the 70's and 80's - could write something so very eloquent...and so very appropriate.

A Message by George Carlin:

The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings but shorter tempers, wider Freeways , but narrower viewpoints.
We spend more, but have less, we buy more, but enjoy less.

We have bigger houses and smaller families, more conveniences, but less time.

We have more degrees but less sense, more knowledge, but less judgment, more experts, yet more problems, more medicine, but less wellness.

We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom.

We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values.

We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often.

We've learned how to make a living, but not a life.

We've added years to life not life to years.

We've been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbor.

We conquered outer space but not inner space.

We've done larger things, but not better things.

We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul.

We've conquered the atom, but not our prejudice.

We write more, but learn less.

We plan more, but accomplish less.

We've learned to rush, but not to wait.

We build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies than ever, but we communicate less and less.


These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion, big men and small character, steep profits and shallow relationships.
These are the days of two incomes but more divorce, fancier houses, but broken homes.
These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill.
It is a time when there is much in the showroom window and nothing in the stockroom.

A time when technology can bring this letter to you, and a time when you can choose either to share this insight, or to just hit delete...
Remember; spend some time with your loved ones, because they are not going to be around forever.
Remember, say a kind word to someone who looks up to you in awe, because that little person soon will grow up and leave your side.
Remember, to give a warm hug to the one next to you, because that is the only treasure you can give with your heart and it doesn't cost a cent.
Remember, to say, 'I love you' to your partner and your loved ones, but most of all mean it. A kiss and an embrace will mend hurt when it comes from deep inside of you.
Remember to hold hands and cherish the moment for someday that person will not be there again.

Give time to love, give time to speak!
And give time to share the precious thoughts in your mind.
AND ALWAYS REMEMBER: Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.

George Carlin

Friday, July 17, 2009

*yawn-ing*

Frère Jacques, frère Jacques,
Dormez-vous? Dormez-vous?
Sonnez les matines! Sonnez les matines!
Ding, dang, dong. Ding, dang, dong.

Are you sleeping? Are you sleeping
Brother John, brother John?
Morning bells are ringing! Morning bells are ringing!
Ding, dong, ding. Ding, dong, ding.

dis song is apparently playing in my head (both versions)....
omg, super sleepy despite sleeping super early last nite (before 10pm)...
it was noisy yet i can fall asleep, have i mentioned-there's a mini fun fair right opposite my house...
gonna fall asleep again in my office...

smack me someone, else i'll b making a fool out of myself dis monday during d brown bag session........

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

to-do LIST

i hav million n 1 things to do n here i m---blogging... *tend to blog when i m supposed to attend to more important matters-a habit of mine i guess*
dis is where i turn to when i m almost lost.......

let's look at my To-Do List....

1. learn to write summary........ *hate summary since form5, i neva do well in summary... i knw i couldnt run away frm dis as i m teaching english, damn shitty.... i, myself is unsure, wat more my students though some of them might b good at it--can i just skip it as there's no ques on summary in final exam (cnt get rid of student's attitude--deep down, still a student)
2. 1 more class to go, i mean d marking of d exercise *enjoy teaching but not marking..
3. #2 reminds me of getting a red pen.. *not 'a' shud b a dozen...
4. arrange my teaching file-all messed up now due to d samples of students' exercises i collected n it's heavier *gona carry dis heavy file frm d 1st block to d last for another 7 to 8 week ~trainning my biceps
5. b prepared for brown bag session next monday............ *dis is d peak hour of d sem, n i was asked to do my presentation, ~sigh..... d preparation includes:
-re-reading of my final year project..
-checking on my slides n do necessary amendments..
-preparing my speech as reading frm d slides isnt a good way of presenting..
-predicting ques which will b asked by d listeners aka senior lecturers..
6. start marking assignment 1 after brown bag session.... else in a few more weeks, i wouldnt b able to breath as they'll b ssubmitting their 2nd assign...
7. search for appropriate n good samples of letters in d net to b uploaded to d portal... *a request frm a student... frankly, i dun feel like spoon-feeding these ppl but some need help very very badly...
8. do some preparation for essay writing... *think of sth catchy instead of asking them to write in d class...
9. collect n photocopy grammar enhancement exercises... *hate d photocopier in d office, alwiz break down when i hav lots to xerox....
10. try to finish up my paper-writing before 20th sept as d deadline is end of sept though m still not sure whether d conference organizer has accepted or rejected my abstract.... but it's good to b prepared.. *it's a joint paper, but y m i writing it all alone*

finally, decorating my office................

*yawn*
so much to do, so lil' time... must start burning d midnite oil, n stop onlining.....

Monday, July 13, 2009

my way of relaxing...

once i log in my fb account, wat i do is not to update "what u have in mind" or check out people's status, pix etc etc but checking on my games............ many may hav stopped, but i'm as enthusiatic as eva when i'm wif my games... some said, playing games make me a loner, my supervisor even said blogging is meant for loners *maybe i am*.... but hey, playing games can trigger our brain besides discovering sth new....

i dunno who else can beat me-- look at d numbers of games i hook up wif..... i used to b d type who do not wish to ponder over a game as i believe it's meant to put me in stress free mode, so all those brain-wrecking games aside... presently, i *d more mature & rational side of me* disagree wif d old me started playing games which require me to use my brain.... n i learn dat a good strategy *game-hacking not included* is a must regardless of games...

as i play, my thinking run wild.... mulling over dis n dat, it will b better if dis n dat r integrated, or shudnt it penalize me if i do dis or it can b more challenging if dis or dat changes r made etc etc..... -i think a lot nowadays even when i play-


why not i myself modify dis game, revamp & develop a new 1 so dat it will b more challenging -was a crazy thought i had once... i know i wouldnt b able to do dat coz i oni know how to use my pc & lappy to check mails, go online, play games and type.... one day, when i retire and hav ample of time, i might...

Thursday, July 9, 2009

I Drove

finally, i manage to DRIVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
y finally, coz i m d last person on earth *exaggerating* frm my batch (aka hometown frends) to b able to drive....
driving, in my opinion is SCARY....
every single time before i enter my car, i hav butterfly in my stomach.....

currently, i'm driving at d tortoise speed-i got very stressful wheneva a car tails me closely, i'll be relieved when all d cars overtake me....................
i promised yongyong that i'll be driving to ipoh to pay her a visit when i'm at rabbit speed..

*no pix* it will b extremely bizzare to camwhore in d car (which is either parked in front of my house or in d uni) or snapping my car pix... i'll do it 1 day-soon, i hope-
btw, have i mentioned, it's a 2nd hand metalic kenari which cost me 25k.............
my dream to go for vacation at least once a year is dashed -possible for cuti2 malaysia oni i assume, so i rather save d $$ for my masters-

ohh, by d way, dis is my 200th post..
my passion towards blogging is still there, it's just dat, i undergo a series of similar routine every week...
m trying to get used to students calling me different names;
-d common 1 would be teacher!! 1 day i shud sound my 275darlings on dis> 'uni students dont address their educators as 'teacher', oni secondary or primary pupils r allowed to do so'
-1 peculiar student addresses me as his 'tutor'(dont u find it odd, "tutor, is my letter correct?"-- goshhh, tsk tsk tsk)
-ms.ong--i alwiz refrain myself frm laughing when i heard ms.ong....
yes, no doubt my students amazed me and i have fun laughing with/at my students in d class, but i couldnt b blogging on all d lil' things which tickle me *keeping students-teacher confidentiality*---- lame excuse...
d truth is, i rather sleep n not blog....

Wednesday, July 1, 2009

wat i did on agong's bday..

almost a month ago, it was agong's birthday.... i visited cameron highland for the first time in my life, dat was how i celebrated Agong's b'day *y cant agong's birthday fall on friday or monday*....

it started of quite well where our dear friend who came bk frm Newcastle for her self-declared break drove all the way frm Sitiawan to Kampar n then to Cameron.. all d 4 of them cramped in my lil' rented room, it was 5 including me.. wat can 5 girls do in a small room? wat else if it is not make-up-ing, apparently wanna looked "presentable" for photo-shooting.... we were all satisfied after almost 1 hour, so we headed to a nearby restaurant-had our breakie which was super cheap & tasty, ask yongyong d exact location for a bowl of curry mee which cost her 1.60... so off we went to cameron...

i was rather excited at first... wud b my first encounter wif tea leaves, vegetation, picturesque scenery, strawberries etc.... anticipating a very beautiful greenery after watching a malaysian mandarin series where cameron was its setting......... unfortunately, cameron highland didnt turn out the way i pictured it or d series... *disappointed*

what i got to see most was cars; imported, local & singaporean cars as we were stucked in a massive jam for hours......... only kl-ites will experience congestion is a myth-it happened everywhere now... as a result, managed to capture some pix (way lesser den wat i expected).............


it wasnt as cold as wat my mom described.. in fact d sun shone brightly.... green leaves n blue sky -very breathtaking-




us + nature... if u asked me wat wud b my favourite colour last time-i wouldnt know how to answer becoz i was d type who preferred to b on d fence *'i was', notice dat*, now, i m proud to say turquoise green is my favourite.....


d amount of food 5 of us gobbled up after a day of starvation... we had our luxurious dinner in Jusco, Ipoh.... all thanks to our dear friend who is now back in Newcastle for dis joyful trip....