Nothing to Blog About

personally, i think i'm getting 'weirder' n 'weirder'...
look at d title, i dun hav anthing interesting to blog about but failed to stop my finger from clicking to dis site, most probably i'm dat species who says & acts differently or maybe becoz it has been very very long since i last blog (if u notice, dis month has d lowest entry of all)..

ok, maybe i shud just write about my routine *which will come to an end in 5weeks time- counting down*
my classes r frm monday to wednesday, all start at 8am and end before noon except my monday late afternoon class which is also a torture for me to bear with d super long gap-i used to leave before 6pm since my 1st day of work here, sticking to it (dat means, i work *including daydreaming* approximately 10hours frm mon to wed) n by d time i got home, it's time for drama followed by yoga classes (twice a week), shower and will hit d sack before 11pm...
as for thurs & fri, i can zz til after d sun rises *omg, since when sleeping has become my oni concern*

being not very productive recently *zz n daydream a lot*> dis might b d main cause of my awkwardness...

next week onwards, i must engage myself with sth meaningful, thus, looking forward to dis friday meeting with a very experienced lecturer from UK for a collaborative research ..
-hope to increase my level of maturity from dis as people usually discuss world issues in conferences, me on d other hand touch on insignificant matter i.e food (those were d experiences gained from last saturday internal seminar; i hav alwiz been looking up to speakers with abilities to capture audience's attention n perfect pronunciation *i m dying to b 1, but oni happens in my dream for d time being* besides d very entertaining speaker, my uncle ck, found another uncle, named uncle leong who spoke flawlessly in his lowest bass voice *me was listening attentively though d topic wasnt my cup of tea* )

next week, i will make myself search n read up possible areas for my masters degree, kinda in a dilemma coz too many options n i m alwiz d fence sitter... sigh~

-in NATO (no action, talk only) mode-

a hectic month

no time to breath (figuratively & literally due to flu)...
i simply cnt find time to lie down without hav to think of work...
even when i was getting ready to zzzz, i might jump off the bed if sth strike...

poor me (not asking for sympathy), fall sick easily-throwing up (yearly occasion: from last year onwards it seems), dizziness appear to b my best frend, followed me whereva i go> guess my antibody has grown weaker... fyi, i neva fell sick during my uni years, was very much healthy running around d whole 3 years..

sigh, i m kinda terrified as i hav not done much preparation for the internal conference as well as d rehearsal (idiot me, dig my own grave-y on earth i sign up for it??); after browsing through d list of presenters + titles, mine seems 'childish'...gosh, wat impression will i leave, ohh dear, dis paper will b re-presented in an external conference-just recently, i felt mine is not up to d par (idiot me, fell for all d compliments/'good'/'interesting' but seriously, who doesnt like praises)

i assumed i can handle but didnt foresee d workload + preparation i need for dis new subj (ended up looking very unintelligent>apparently, they prefer d head instead of d powerless me; it's not a wrong step coz d head has d right to do wateva he/she wants+grading)... on d brighter side, my previous sem students dropped by (quite a number of them, some wif very good results, d rest r average/poor)-chit-chatted n d group grew bigger n bigger + noisier too but happy to c them, all game for d new sem..

no time for leisure as in facebooking since d semester starts + chatting, not dat i like it very much, of dat whole list i oni chat to a few (getting fewer these days coz people just dun hav nice things to say, d comments/way of chatting either make me upset or give me pressure)...i dun owe anyone anything, stop talking to me as though i m ur maid- mind ur manner- my own fault too, cin-cai-ness gave people chances to dominate me..

p/s: lesser frends/no buddy, who cares-i have those who r dear + sincere to me though they r far..

2 dozens-year-old

very few sms-es received yesterday but greetings were abundance in facebook... there were advance n belated wishes too... i hav even compiled them (as if i dun hav better things to do, kinda infected by my students' disease *doing tasks at d very last-minute*)... anyhow i was surprised to c many unexpected ones dropping a line or two... it was fun reading all of them...

in reality, i wasnt thrill-not dat i wished to hav a birthday party or d like.. wasnt in d mood for anything, i wud say.. ironically, i was shopping away n catching a movie during d weekends but d feeling was kinda different -wasnt as enthusiastic as before-(was in ukm/kajang during d weekend, guess i just wanna reach d purpose of my visit which is to get my slides checked before the internal seminar)

my birthday wishes *greedy*, 1 of them didnt come true after all; d rest, it will b on me, c how committed and determine i will b...
so, next year onwards, i ll just smile when ppl ask 'how old r u?'

finally, my thanks to all of u out there, frends, my 2 fav lecturers (ck n madame) & students.....












dats about it, tasted 1 pinky adorable strawberry cake n voila d end of October 12, 2009...

p/s: angie has been kind enuff to cook me spaghetti though i need to do all d cuttings.. but it was nice as alwiz... tqvm angie..