Trust.

personally, trusting a person is not easy unless i know the person well.

it's my very 1st time letting a stranger (ok, not exactly becoz i knew him/them for approx 2weeks) takes charge in a task-i'm agitated as i type dis becoz i don't get to hear anything from the person who agreed to compile the whole thing for tmr presentation... *dis fella neither replied my mail nor yahoo chat*

i was out of my mind last week i presume -or maybe i'm tired of travelling and working, i don't give a damn- most of d time i was d one who do the compilation in undergrad, but i've let some1 whom i knw for 2 weeks to do the most important job-totally crazy, jeopardizing my grade (yes, i'm a kiasu freak who want A and more A's) ..
there are so many 'wat if' in my mind currently,
-wat if he is absent tmr?
-wat if he said he tried, but he can't do much?
-wat if he changes my slides without letting me know earlier?
-wat if he forgot to bring his pendrive?
*tell me, i'm just being a lil' over worried*

i should be zzz-ing, i stayed up to work on my write-up last nite... it has been tough-wif conflicts occurring, petty issues etc.. alwiz wanted to do my best, but d perfectionist me was being questioned recently by several people...

-in d midst of convincing myself, things will be alright tmr while trying to zzz-

What other People think of You is NONE of Your business

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complaints, disatisfaction, uncertainty...

the big boss as in d boss of all bosses in the organization received a complaint mail from a student of mine..
i freak out right away when i received a forwarded mail from d biggest boss...
i'm just a tutor who is not even a permanent staff but my name has been brought up-do u think i can assume ntg has happened?

my fault?? i'm just a not very helpful advisor, i can listen to problems but not solving them, becoz we have rules to adhere to... or my advice wasnt clear which led to communication break down... or i'm inexperience to deal wif problems faced by other people.... i shouldnt try helping in d 1st place, i shouldnt even entertain business which has ntg to do wif me...

student's fault?? unhappy wif d results, pretty sure everyone wanted a good grade but wat can i do... is it necessary to bug the president?? you can complain, wat about me-who should i voice my disatisfaction to?

i just wanna lead a normal life, do my own work, get my parts done, know dat those i loved are safe and sleep peacefully at nite... unfortunately, there are alwiz happenings which will put me in d limelight (not in a good manner), i never wanted to stick out like a sore thumb in any circumstances good or bad... i'm happy even i m just a ke-le-fe or ignored by d majority, happier in that position..

*leave me alone*

Get-Together Day

4 of us got together again in less den 6 months time-co incidentally we were all in selangor for d weekend.. it was for Eleen again (remembered the latest wedding post)-she's going to deliver a baby boy soon, we were all so excited to see her.. we did some catching up, but most of d time eating, ate as if we were d ones who are pregnant... some Italian cuisines for dinner and a heavy supper at PapaRich-d menu was so attractive, we can't resist ordering food & drinks.. tsk tsk tsk, bad bad diet.. but, it's ok, we don't do dis often-some lame excuse to cover our ass..

Kickstart 2010 at Teluk Batik

a pretty late new year entry

of all the places, i went to teluk batik on d 2nd day of 2010...

wat can i say, i turned black-literally, when i got home but was glad my skin turned to its original colour a few days later-not dat bad after all...

ok, it was a picnic, so we brought food-one promised to bake cookies but ended up buying kfc, at least there were some home-cooked food, else we would b gazing over our neighbours' nasi briyani ayam, bee hoon goreng etc -yes, we actually had neighbours becoz it was jam-packed wif human..

clock wise from top: my mom's expertise-vege sushi but she used sausages, no vege meat.. mini oranges.. finally nuggets cooked in a micro-wave, oil free, healthy n yummy..

apparently, we did nothing except enjoying d wind and soaking our feets..

so i suggested 'jumping'-god knows y i like to snap pix of me jumping...

some random jumping pix.. d oni prob is, my muffin top was shown publicly not once but several times-tsk tsk tsk... but i jump enthusiastically...

groupie minus d camera girl....

wakakaka, wat a day n there were some activities after beach-ing.. we had to finish up our kfc in mc d becoz we just cnt resist the ambience.. later in d evening, dropped by a fren's place and saw her baby girl whose lips looked just like her... so, dat was my new year...

p/s: i'll try to blog but cnt b as frequent as b4 due to d tasks assigned by d lecturers-though no written scary formal exam at d end of d semester, d number of journals i have to read-they're pilling up rather quickly-drowned in d sea of reading materials, guess dats wat i hav to pay for choosing coursework based.. anyway, photos will be uploaded, pretty sure u guys browse thru most of d time without actually reading wat i wrote right.. so, don't forget to click on my nuffnang advert... adios!