a hectic month

no time to breath (figuratively & literally due to flu)...
i simply cnt find time to lie down without hav to think of work...
even when i was getting ready to zzzz, i might jump off the bed if sth strike...

poor me (not asking for sympathy), fall sick easily-throwing up (yearly occasion: from last year onwards it seems), dizziness appear to b my best frend, followed me whereva i go> guess my antibody has grown weaker... fyi, i neva fell sick during my uni years, was very much healthy running around d whole 3 years..

sigh, i m kinda terrified as i hav not done much preparation for the internal conference as well as d rehearsal (idiot me, dig my own grave-y on earth i sign up for it??); after browsing through d list of presenters + titles, mine seems 'childish'...gosh, wat impression will i leave, ohh dear, dis paper will b re-presented in an external conference-just recently, i felt mine is not up to d par (idiot me, fell for all d compliments/'good'/'interesting' but seriously, who doesnt like praises)

i assumed i can handle but didnt foresee d workload + preparation i need for dis new subj (ended up looking very unintelligent>apparently, they prefer d head instead of d powerless me; it's not a wrong step coz d head has d right to do wateva he/she wants+grading)... on d brighter side, my previous sem students dropped by (quite a number of them, some wif very good results, d rest r average/poor)-chit-chatted n d group grew bigger n bigger + noisier too but happy to c them, all game for d new sem..

no time for leisure as in facebooking since d semester starts + chatting, not dat i like it very much, of dat whole list i oni chat to a few (getting fewer these days coz people just dun hav nice things to say, d comments/way of chatting either make me upset or give me pressure)...i dun owe anyone anything, stop talking to me as though i m ur maid- mind ur manner- my own fault too, cin-cai-ness gave people chances to dominate me..

p/s: lesser frends/no buddy, who cares-i have those who r dear + sincere to me though they r far..