Job Dilemma

waiting in anticipation to attend literature lecture tomorrow, i've read some of my seniors' notes n i find it very fascinating!!! very eager to look at those interesting assignment topics too (dun c me as an alien k dearest coursemates, just a word of advice : love those assignments n they will sure love u back)
let see, i have just attended the 1st lecture of my final semester..
dr.noraini, the course coordinator for english language analysis 3.. she has been 1 of my favourite lecturer... i envy her fluency in english, she speaks very rapidly with very accurate pronunciation-never out of words n her loud laughter makes me smile.. unlike other lecturers, she attained her BA, MA & PhD in Malaysia-hence, the grass is not always greener on the other side- my supervisor too is a proud local product..

i wonder izzit possible for me to b like them 1 day??
i'm just too timid to speak up, afraid of voicing my opinions, afraid that i'll sound too offensive or insulting, afraid to ask questions, afraid of presentation, n anything to do with my voice and mouth except munching food..
why can't i just ignore how people look at me?? most of my uni friends are in no doubt their ability though they might be wrong..

there's nothing great for being a 1st class student/top student if the person (me) fail terribly in communication skills..
after attending d career seminar last weekend, fear envelope me..
looks like, i'm not guaranteed with a job becoz they (the recruiter) put aside our academic performance.. worse still, they empahsize on popular courses i.e engineering, accountancy, business and none of them touch on language courses..
1 more to worry, the curricular vitae (cv), according to the speaker (some professionals from human resource department in several big popular companies) they wan something that can capture their interest to read on, d length shouldnt b more den 2 pages, no exaggerations, no bombastic language but can't b too plain..
they want us to say we are fantanstic, great, extraordinary.. isn't it a little ironic??
dun wan us to b boastful but it's crucial to state our strength..

frankly, if people ask me what i wan to be, my ambition-i freak out, i dun hav an answer for it..
i can forsee future me particularly on my graduation day being bombarded by career/job issue..
to whoeva my 'prince charming' will b, do grab me and ride away on a white pony..

there u have it, final year project hanging in dd air, resume need to b done..