Que Sera Sera..

2 more paper to go...
(not gonna be a nice post, ntg but complains-i advice u to skip it if u r not in a pleasant mood)

d previous 2, i dun think i do well..
-literature: not enuff time to look through, wat more check my grammar.
-french: also not enuff time, grammar aside, d vocab is SUPER TOUGH, i can't predict wat the texts were saying, d title of d essay was 'wat u c urself in 10 years time, will u b married, how many children u'll b having, wat job u'll b doing' --> dis is ridiculous, wif my limited vocab n d newly learnt future simple tense, i can't produce dat essay under so much pressure.. in d end, my face turn as black as 'pou ching tian' and yes i cried my heart out when i enter my room..

am i gonna graduate with 1st class??
*keeping my finger cross*
though many think grade is not important, seriously me too.. high cgpa doesnt mean u can work well.. but, there's alwiz dis urge in me (not me only but other undergraduate-i'm pretty sure)to do well and score as high as possible..

all these pressure so unbearable.. with exam and fyp to submit, n future which need serious consideration, AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!
i need a long break-is 1 month long enuff after 18 years of study???
however, i'm longing for d master program-how ironic, i m so afraid of exam yet i still wanna further my study..

of late, i have been doing a lot of thinking but all ended up in tears..
wat i wan? wat i wan to b? where i wanna stay after dis? should i apply for more jobs but end up rejecting some becoz applied blindly without understanding the nature of the work?
d feeling of reluctance to leave ukm is growing-wat xia fong said is apparently pointing to me besides her-yes, i do not wan to leave dis comfort zone..
to avoid myself from crying more, dis is wat i bear in mind
-Que Sera Sera-
recognize dis song, "que sera sera, wateva will b will b"
*sigh*

thanx mel for comforting me..
yup, i will listen to u, put aside all the thought and concentrate on my study + fyp, shud stop crying too like wat u said eyes will become tiny, face will grow bigger after crying, outcome: 1 big fat ugly girl.. how to attend interviews, meet people and get married in d future?
(sounds funny, but it's quite true)