sick + sad

dis is not my year......
d 7th n 8th day of 2009, i was laying on my bed...
throwing out 5 times from midnite til dawn.......

havent been dis sick for as long as i can remember,
so i was bed-ridden for 2 long days..

no one cares for me (wat can i expect, staying wif a bunch of strangers)
d aunty especially (i think she hates me), when i asked her to drive me to a clinic, she was so reluctant, dropped me n off she goes (god knows where)..
when she came to pick me, i was dizzy n d discomfort of my tummy was real bad....
dont u yearn for some attention when u r sick???

d level of stressfulness staying in dat house is undescribable,
i hav to be very careful wif every movement, my every action is like being watched..

for dis coming long cny break, i will search for a job in sitiawan, doesnt matter d post, if there's someone or a company/factory/school/bank hiring me, dats it: I WILL QUIT MY CURRENT JOB & SHIFT HOME IMMEDIATELY!!!