*continuation of d title* miserable...
i need to focus!!! concentrate!!!
do not knnow wat is going on wif me recently (since d beginning of dis year)-i hav been living in misery since i got bk from my holiday...
things go haywire, me too..
1st, some dirty food make me sick for 2 long days..
2nd, got some serious scoldings where i dun even hav a chance to speak (i just lowered my head n accept evything-it's a reprimand, wat can i do-he is far more superior n better in it) from 'a frend' for my wrong fingering while playing d 2 strings instrument.. y on earth i opt to join dis club during my first sem in uni? becoz i lurve music, n wud like to try sth new.. i'm happy when i was able to play some songs wif it but do i deserve scoldings for failing to curve my fingers (it's a habit i acquired since i started learning piano when i was 9).. izit a sin, to not to cut my fingernails... i'm not gonna earn my living by playing dat instrument.. loosing my dignity is 1 thing, tarnishing my passion is another-at d end, i did not get to enjoy myself during d reunion as i was still bothered by wat had happened in d afternoon.. *sigh* dis had happened b4, it was more to a rebuke... have undergone several unhappy moments in dis club yet i m still sticking wif it-wat d hell is wrong wif me?- as for now, i did feel a lil' regret - i shud hav joined some other clubs n mix wif ppl from d same bkgd..
3rd, failed to answer 2 phone calls which i assumed r frm utar headquarters..
4th, i left a number of important documents which i need them quite badly for my new job application in d office..
5th, d bus dat i travelled in broke down in kg.koh just now (thank god it has reached kg.koh, not somewhere in d highway) and at dat moment i really had to pee and my dad was still on his way (it was a torture, trying to hold bk n carrying my luggage)
6th, still pondering y m i so upset, who or wat is causing dis?
can u c, y everything doesnt seem right? when will things turn out good? when m i going to get my life in order??
at least i know how to comfort myself: everything will b fine during cny, it's d ox year (my year-remember?) *keeping my fingers cross*
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