Pressure..

*sigh* X10....
hmmmmm.....
haizzz......

shouldn't start my entry wif those words..
try to blend those words, and voila-u have me..
it has been 1 week since i last blog, too bz-wif wat? i too not sure, only remember
-spent 96hours at home,
-10hours in bus,
-a few hours amending my f.y.p + surfing the net for resources,
-most of the time thinking bout my assignments - i repeat, THINKING..

i did sth very daring when i was at home, so i need to 'document' it-i rejected a job interview!!!! after mailing a letter of declination, d hr called me twice-i didn't pick up.. my dad said, i should phone her and apologize, talk to her properly if not she will b very upset wif me.. i did give her a call wif my heart pumping 80km/h, sweaty hands, butterfly in the stomach.. finally she picked up and sound glad but a little unhappy-gave me plenty of advices and asked me to reconsider, give her a call if i happen to change my mind.. wat is she thinking man?? is my c.v that impressive?? am i doing d right thing or i've just rejected a 1in a life time opportunity?? she did say, not any tom,dick or harry was shortlisted for the interview, and i'm very 'lucky'...
but i know wat i'm doing---financial/banking is not my cup of tea and if i happen to get d job i wouldn't b able to carry out my resposibility well!!!
did i mention wat postition i've rejected??
d job title is associate editor in iFAST..
wat's done can't be undone-no regret, in fact i'm glad coz i no need to write an essay on financial literacy which i don't really know wat it is..

as for now, works are pilling up-it's d peak season for all uni students at this time of d semester-especially final year students like me, no more smiling, no more laughing out loud, no more shopping, no more hanging out, no more yum cha, no more chatting, no more day-dreaming, no more watching movies/series, need to cut down blogging as well (generally, i'll b reducing d time spent on d internet) ..

i equate d last 6 weeks of a sem wif nightmares.. i have lotsa uncertainty which is best left unanswered..
-when is d exact submission date for f.y.p-heard lotsa rumours, freaking out now as i have not done much analysis, wat more written report??
-when is ELT second quiz??
-is our elt game presentable-can we really build the board game???
-when are we suppose to present our literature poster-don't even know wat i should b focusing in d poster, not sure whether wud it b fine to compare memoirs of a geisha and moulin rouge, wat type of images can i use-dis is d assignment i worry most!!!!
-what dr.bah & dr.ck gonna assigned me in dis coming workshop???
someone, plz help clear my doubts!!!!
everything is so out of control, i'm too going haywire soon-too much to do, don't know which to do..

pressure, stress, anxiety, nervousness....